WELCOME TO MY LIFE

ADIK TAKUT LAA KAKAK

2006-11-21T08:09:00.000-08:00

hohohohoho...lama aku tak tulis kat blog aku ih...yer aaa...aku kat kerteh ih...nak excess tenet susah siot...umah aku kat kerteh tarak...ih pun aku tumpang kat umah kak anes...so how laa kan..ermmm...aku skang ih bz gak aa ngan keje...

n...selama ih...aku punya laa nak jumpa raph susah...sebab jauh...nih dah dekat pun aku tak jumpa...dah 2 bulan aku kat kerteh ih..yer aa kan..memasing bz..so how?errmmm...aku nak citer sket aa aper aku rasa skunk...aku tgh gembira...sedang berkawan ngan seseorunk...mengenali hati budinya..cuma...aku tak pasti...aku takut...aku just jadik kwn laa..utk suka?aku dah serik... terlibat ngan tunang orunk...

lum lagik aku jumpa orunk yang leh terima aku sepertimana raph...aku wat aper jer...anything... mengada2 ker...dier layan jerr...baik,kan?aku susah utk tak menyayangi raph...serius...ntahlaaa...aku pun tatau,,,just go with the flow...nwayz...aku bahagia kat kerteh skunk...hehehe

KENANGAN TERINDAH

2006-10-10T02:50:00.000-07:00

segala2 nya berakhir...induction dah over..sumer bawak diri masing2...aku pun dah ader life aku sendrik...n now i understand everything...friends remain friends...hahahaha...orunk tuh dah tunang...so how?it's kay...at least dier tak ignore aku kan...even though aku tau mende ih lambat giler...di saat2 aku dah fly away...giler!

aku pun malas nak komen lanjut...cuma skang ih aku nak truskan idup kat bumi kerteh ih...kat polyethylene...best2...ader kawan2 baru...ermmm...cuma aku terkilan aa gak sket...aku rasa kalau leh putar balik masa...aku nak putar balik...aku tak nak bgtau dier yang aku suka kat dier...mcm maner ek...so aku takde aaa ilang kawan...cam skang ih...dier pun tak nak jadik kwn aku kot!!kalau aku leh melutut...aku melutut mintak maaf coz kacau idup dier....

pernah dgr tak lagu tentang kita?lagu tema pipe 6...lagu perpisahan...huhu...masa tuh aku nanges truk...bodoh ker aku nangis?depan dier...tp serius...masa tuh perasaan aku jujur...aku miss dier...as kawan laa kan...coz dier baik gilerrr...trust me...aku tak jumpa kawan laki sebaik dier...sporting...kelakar...best aa jadik kawan yopy ih...

adusss...kalau dier baca blog aku ih...lagik laa tak nak kwn ngan aku...seriussssssss!!yopy!!!aku dah bertaubat...aku tak minat kau!!!dah ilang dah perasaan tuh...mcm maner aku nak yakinkan kau aaa...aduhaiii..takde laa...dier macam marah kat aku...at least kan...tanya laa kabo...as kawan kan...adusss...it's kay....salah aku gak...padan muka kau nadia!!!

HARI-HARI TERAKHIR

2006-09-18T09:38:00.000-07:00

adussss..dah nak abis lak induction ih...adusssssssssssssssssssssss....aku akan merindui diaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
rindu siotttttttttttttttttttttttttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!yopyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!111

BAHAGIA YANG KUKECAPI SKANG HANYA SEMENTARA

2006-09-07T06:22:00.000-07:00

ahhhhhhh...bahagianya aku ari ih...memang aku dah berdoa semlm...agar last day aku kat instep ih aku dapat duduk seblah yopy...Allah telah memakbulkan doa aku..pagi tadik...lam kelas aku dapat duk seblah yopy...yeay!!!aku gembira giler...memang Allah tuh bagi laluan utk aku duk seblah dier coz memang aku nak sangat!sbb aper aku ckp camnih...sebab pagi tadik nor ngan yus tak datang...pucuk dicita ulam mendatang...

as usual...lagu yang aku ske sangat dengar lately...yang dier sering siulkan kat aku...azura....kaulah sinar hidupku...n...dier cakap camnih..."ahhhhh...azura....aku ingat farah...bahagianya aku dapat duk seblah azura..."(yopy...over kan aku?aku mintak mahap bebanyak....coz taking all ur jokes seriously...)n plz don stop making jokes to me....plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...

dier cakap gak...bler lagik dier nak kacau aku...as aku kat kerteh...dier kat kl...n dier kater aku akan bahagia pasnih...coz takkan jumpa dier???apaaaaaaaaaaaaa???aku menderita sioottt!!!bukannya aku gembira...and bler aku pk2...lagik 2 minggu jer leh spend time ngan dier...lagik aku sedey...aku tau...bahagia ini hanya sementara jer utk aku,yopy...tp aku bersyukur kerana Allah bagi peluang kat aku mencintai seorang insan bernama YOPY SOSIAWAN BIN AMRIZAL...alaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....aku sedey gilerrrrrrrrrr

aku tau aku takkan dapat kau,yopy...hanya Allah tentukan...aku takkan lawan...dan tak mungkin merampas hak org len...baru kusadari...cintaku bertepuk sebelah tangan...kau buat remuk...seluruh hatiku...semoga aku akan mengilhami isi hatimu yang beku...semoga akan datang keajaiban hingga akhirnya kau pun mahu...aku mencintaimu..lebih dari yang kau tahu... mungkin kau takkan pernah tahu.....

adusssss....memang aku dah giler!!!paling best tadi...dier suh aku conteng file dier...bestnyerrrr..
sumer mende aku tulis...aku tulis maksud nama dier...sumer aa...Yippee...Outstanding...Polite...
Yahoo...Sweet...Outspoken...Simple....Intelligent...Attractive...Wolfy...Adorable...Nice...huhu...aku bahagia sengsorunk pun takper..it's kay yopy...aku tau aku tak layak utk kau cintai...kau pun ader yang punya...aku tauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!tp aku tatau apsal aku jatuh cinta ngan kau!!!!

'AKAD NIKAH'

2006-09-05T05:50:00.000-07:00

aku rasa aku makin giler aaa...arghhhhh...nadia!!!aper nak jadik ngan kau??terlajak dah ih...gell nyer ske kat yopy...tadik the best moment aaa...kitorunk ader telematch tadik... dan yopy segrup aku...bese aaa kan...dah menang...give five aaa kat dier...tapi..
ngan aku len sket...ngan orunk len yopy ke atas,...ngan aku yopy suh aku tepuk kat bawah...best siottt...aduh haiiii...padahal haram siot!

yang best skaliiiiiiii...masa nak tarik tali...aku join..even dah lama aa kan tak join...
yopy siap salam gudluck kat aku...trus aku terbayang macam akad nikah...damn!!giler tak aku?aku tak tau aa kan..kalau pas2 nih...yopy baca blog aku ih...maaf kan aku...kerna mencintaimu,yopy...aku memang takleh bendung...shit!damn it... yopy dah nak kawen,nadia!!!!ingat tuh!!!prinsip aku...aku takkan amik pakwe or milik orunk len...coz aku tak nak orunk wat mende yang sama kat aku...

tapi...aku takleh tahan perasaan aku kat kau,yopy...cerita yang aku story kat yopy pun... bukan pasal aku ngan orunk len..pasal yopy gak...damn!!!cuma aku tipu2 sket...aku tau... tak mungkin yopy ske kat aku...tp aku dah tersuka...aku terjatuh hati...nak wat camne ek.. soal hati dan perasaan ih...every minute every day aku terpk pasal yopy...aku cuba elak2 dari yopy...tapi takleh...yopy...mengertilah...aku sengasara...lemas berendam airmata...sakit kurasakan...aduhhhss...aku dah kronik ih...tolong lah aku yopy...

yopy!!!!aku suka giler kat kau...aku harap kau tak buang aku jauh2...still remain as friends...aku tau aku tak layak untuk kau...dan aku tak mengharapkan lebih2...sekadar ingin beritahu kau bahawasanya....aku,NADIA AIN SALMA BINTI MOHD NASIR...telah jatuh cinta dengan dirimu,YOPY SOSIAWAN BIN AMRIZAL...serius!toloooooongggggg jangan marah or larikan diri dari aku...plzzzzzzzzz

5+5+5=550

2006-08-14T00:34:00.000-07:00

hoho...aku sangat2 gembira ari ih...aku bermesra ngan acab...yeah...dah nak pi instep baru aaa dapat segrup...adeh laaa...tp memang best...dier duk semeja mumuler...tp nak wat grup discussion kena head count...sib baik 1-3 kalau 1-5 takde harapan aaa aku nak dapat segrup...huhu...dak duk dak duk jantung aku...hish...

dier duk blakang aku...siap main2 pen aku...mumuler duk sebelah...dekat gelll nyer...kepala bertemu kepala...best2...aiyakkkk... cair aku d ctu...mcm maner nih...siap main teka teki lagik...aku kater aku nak gak ckp ngan dier...guna laa teka teki nor...5+5+5=550...put a '/' to make it correct...huhu..cuba laa...last2 dier tak dapat...so aku bg jawapan...dier senyum...dah aa jarang giler senyum...n sepanjang discussion dier gelak2...comelllll!!!

RIGHT THINGS AT THE RIGHT TIME

2006-08-13T23:56:00.000-07:00

merawat luka yang terpendam...
kesannya masih berdarah....
hendak ku tangiskan tiada pedih...
yang telah terjadi padaku...
pasrah aku terima...
kau hujankan penghinaan...
aku renjis kesabaran...
aku curah pertanyaan...
adakah bahagia nanti akan menyingkir hiba...
dalam ribut ada hina...
dalam tenang ada sabar...
dalam tangis sendirian...
berkemungkinankan bahagia nanti akan menyusur tiba...
bukan ku mengundang bencana...
juga tak ku menabur dosa...
tak dapat dinafi kebetulan...
dugaan menimpa diriku...
rela aku terima...

erm...leh ke aku lupa sumer mende yang menimpa diri aku?nope...i don't think so...coz betul aper yang tuan hj rahim cakap....our past is the drive towards success...kalau kiter kenang balik what had happened to our lives...then only we can know our own target and kita takkan lupa diri...seriously and frankly speaking...i really don't mean to kenakan sesaper...or insult sesaper...but then...aku tulis kat blog nih sekadar berkongsi pengalaman aku ngan sesaper yang terbaca blog ih...almaklum laaa...aku ih jarang gak nak tulis lately...tp..dah tenet free...aku amik kesempatan aaa..

back to the hot issue laa kan...mmg...aku ngaku yang tuh sumer adalah luahan hati aku...nih aku rujuk specifically utk blog aku yang bertajuk DIARI SEORANG PEREMPUAN....n aku tak sangka plak there's action and impact to others...aku sekadar luahan...aku nak share ngan kawan2 aku...mcm mana aku n family aku diinsult...dikutuk...dihina...aduhhhss...just because a small thing...sorry kalau aku teremosional...tapi that's the truth...but it's kay...ader gak hikmah nyer bler the particular person realize their mistake...it's not that aku nak tuding jari n salahkan org...but ppl MUST respect other's feelings...

tuh yang ibu slalu pesan..if u don't want others to make bad things on u...u mustn't do the same thing to others...yup...n that principle i held until now...n kat sini pun diorunk ajar mende yang sama...n i think i've done the right things just at the right time...so that that situation will not happened to anybody...come on laa kan...u r educated...why not u think like one...plz...aku pun bukan nak carik musuh...tidak...i just can't take it bila mana my parents dihina sebegitu skali...even makcik sabar yang dengar pun berdesing telinga...boleh tertampar...apertah lagik my mum...bila mana my dad dicop banyak setan?what kind of words are that?aku takleh terima laa sampai skang...n u know what...my family ader laa pergi berubat kat harun din...n aku tgk dengan mata kepala aku sendrik...macam mana org yang 'ada setan' tuh...harun din tepuk jer...menjerit kuar sore len...n when harun din holds my dad...nothing happened...n that's consider banyak setan la?come on...setan ader kat memaner jer..tak yah tunggu nak kena ketuk nak buang...solat...baca al-quran...wat yang disuruh....tinggal yang ditegah...n i'm sure setan lari...betul tak?sakit2 nih sumer dugaan Allah...usahlah kita percaya mende2 kurafat nih...berdoa...insya Allah..Allah akan tolong...percayalah...sumer mende yang perubatan tuh hanyalah ikhtiar...tapi yang sembuhkan adalah atas kehendak Allah...

let's say la kan...my parents pi laa gak berubat cara smack tuh...haha..nama baru...then...keep on tak baik2 gak...tuh consider aper?banyak setan gak?aduh laa...berserah pada Allah...ikhtiar tuh pun dah wat per...pergi therapy....mintak air drpd harun din...dua cara tuh...traditional n modern...it's enough laa kot...ari tuh aku tulis more on my feelings...pasal keje...tuh pun satu hal gak...memang makan dalam abisss...nih aku nak detail pasal parents aku lak...as anak sulong...aku sangat2 care mende2 ih...n i do feel bad about it...sangat2 sedih...kecewa....n sorry to say...susah utk aku sembuhkan luka ih...makan dalam aa mende ih...it takes time...aku leh act bese...aku maafkan...tp aku akan berhati2...same goes to my parents...they'll be more becareful...nak wat camner...sumer mende yang terjadik ih...dugaan Allah..

aku reda ngan sumer ih...tp aku nak nasihatkan kat korunk...hati2 biler bercakap...tak sumer org leh terima aper yang kita wat...aku pun ader wat salah...n biler korunk nak wat something...remember this...put ur feet into their shoes..cuba bayangkan what if we are at their place...mcm kalau as parents tuh...cuba pk dlu...what if anak kalian kena...sian kat anak2 yang jadik mangsa...walhal yang wat salah parents...mcm kes aku ih...aku tak marah langsung anak dier...coz memang kitorunk baik...aku doakan agar dier berjaya...x pernah timbul sekelumit pun rasa benci..dengki or what so ever...bila mana dier lagik berjaya drpd aku...aku sedar saper aku n saper family aku...tidak adil utk dier...sampai nangis sumer...percayalah...aku tak mencarik musuh dengan family dier...aku sekadar meluahkan aper aku rasa...sebab aku dah tekad...aku nak tulis kisah aku 'sakit' kat blog aku as soon as aku dapat keje...n Allah bagi laluan tuh... tak sangka plak incident tuh nak jadik n termasuk dalam agenda penulisan aku...

ntahlah...sesungguhnya...aper yang aku nak wat skang...aku nak angkat balik nama baik keluarga aku..setelah aku wat mereka dihina kerana kelewatan aku mendapat keje...nih sumer berpunca dari satu saja...aku lambat dapat keje...tuh jer puncanya...aku dah tekad nak keje poyo2...gembirakan my family...berbakti kepada keluarga,bangsa,agama dan negara...wallahualam

AKU BISA JADI APA SAJA UNTUKMU

2006-08-11T22:18:00.000-07:00

ACAB...

aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah dalam tidurmu..

aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yang mungkin bisa kau rindu...

karena langkah merapuh tanpa dirimu...

karena hati telah letih...

aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yang selalu bisa kau sentuh...

aku ingin kau tahu bahwa ku selalu memujamu....

tanpamu sepinya waktu merantai hati

oh…

bayangmu seakan-akan …

kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku...

yang memanggil rinduku padamu oh...

kau seperti udara yang kuhela kau selalu ada...

hanya dirimu yang bisa membuatku tenang...

tanpa dirimu aku merasa hilang dan sepi...

kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku...

yang memanggil rinduku padamu

oh …

kau seperti udara yang kuhela...

kau selalu ada, selalu ada, dan selalu ada...

yang selalu ada dan selalu ada ………..

IQRA'

2006-08-11T07:26:00.000-07:00

adusss...semlm baru aku dapat satu news yg memeranjatkan!!!adeh makkk...bibi perasan dowh aku duk usha acab...hahaha...aku bg gelaran iqra' kat dier...acab terbalikkan jd baca=iqra'...huhu..best tak?aku memang yo2 o ske kat dier...mcm aku ske kat angah dlu...serius nyer...tapikan...bibi brought up the matter yang dier tau aku usha saper...abesss aaa...aku trus down...maner tak...malu dowh...aku ih kan pemalu...aku tak nak aaa byk org tau...takat nor ngan hasfa aa yang tau...seriusss malu bibi tau...damnnnnn...

ermmmm...second ppl yang aku minat tuh...ex-utp...tp kecik gilerr...chumeyl...ketua grp aku... yopy nama dier...jowo gitu...tuh option kedua aaa...tp...aku still ske kat acab tuh...coz aku rasa yopy dah berpunyer...aku nak cuba aaa lagik...tp aku takkan bgtau dier yang aku ske laa...macam mana aku bgtau kat angah ngan raph...adusss...kang jd macam angah lak kang...naya...baik aku diam2...n kalau aku tau aku ader saingan...aku tarik diri beb...maner laa leh lawan ngan org2 kat sini...sumer pompuan cun2...aku nih taraf tong sampah jerr...sedey2...kalau laa dier ader makwe or minat kat org...aku quit aaa...arghhhhhh!!!
aku dah gilerr!!ske gilerr!!!minat gilerrr kat acab!!!!!!

ACAB

2006-08-07T09:37:00.000-07:00

ermm...aku baru balik dari janda baik...best giler kat sana...banyak laa mende aku blajar...theory n physical...sumer aa...penat rasanyer...tapi berbaloi la kan...sekian lama aku menanti nak keje ngan petronas...biler dah bagik training free ih...aku rasa beruntung sangat2...aku tatau laa aper aku rasa nih over ker aper ker kan...

4 days kat permata trus pi janda baik...kat permata tuh banyak class...kira cam lecture aaa kan...boleh tahan...cuma tak nampak gambaran sebenar n how to apply them...2nd day in permata...spotted one laa kan...small...cute...tapi garang...aku nak jihad mumuler tuh tapi tak tahan...bgtau gak nor...hasfa...kantoi ngan yus pun pasal aku pinjam camera dier...tumpang...tuh pun dah last2 day...

kat janda baik...on the way pergi tuh aku sebas laa...tak sangka la plak kan...aku wat bese jer...tapi hatiku dah berdebar2 dah...malu siot..lama aku tak jatuh hati ih...ish2...aku cuba psycho diri sendrik...tah2 dier dah ader makwe...aiseh...tapi takper aaa...aku usha2 dlu...ader rezeki dapat aaa...kat janda baik lak...how i wish segroup ngan dier...tapi takde jodoh aaa...aku group 3...dier group 4...tp ok gak...kang maser bear hole tuh...malu sey...tak pepasal dier angkat aku yang berat ih...malu2...tp seriously la kan...activities kat janda baik tuh sumer berpaedah...sumer berguna...motivation yang menjadi...best siottt....rasa berat lak nak tinggalkan tempat tuh...sedey2....haaa...last activity b4 balik ke permata tuh...ader kena wat raft...rakit yer...bukan raph aka rafael tau...pas wat raft kena test kat dalam tasik...dalam siottt....aku dh aa fobia air...tapi wat macho jer...tgh aku bz pakai2 life jacket tuh...tetiba acab bg semangat...dier nyampuk aaa...sebab aku cam cuak ngan life jacket tuh...dier kata ok...then aper lagik...amik kesempatan aaa aku...aku tanya dier...dalam ke tak...dier kater tak dalam...bagi aku semangat aaa tuh...heheheheh...yes!comel siottt!!!!tapi aper daaa aku...tak abiskan race tuh..aku cuak...abg blur(fascilitator) kat ctu rescue aku...alahaiiii....

balik lak...tak sama bas...huhu...hari ih plak...maser tgh class security...aku curik2 amik gambar dier...amik video...dier tak pasan mumuler...tapi...dah nak abis tuh...dier cam tau2 jer...siap pandang camera aku lagik....isk2...kantoiiii...tadik...maser men volley...dier men gak...yes!dier serve bagik aku lak tuh...aku plak tak sengaja bagik dier...huhu...jodoh...macam dalam citer pirates lak...compass jack sparrow tuh...huhu...kesimpulannyer...acab comellll!!!!

DIARI SEORANG PEREMPUAN

2006-07-31T06:47:00.000-07:00

Tatkala aku menulis nih…aku semakin ‘pulih’…agak lama aku menanggung penderitaan nih…tanggung beban yang amat berat..hanya Allah, keluarga..especially ibu yang tahu dan mengerti akan penderitaan ku ini…jika kalian di tempatku…mungkin kalian mengerti akan maksudku….aku ingin berkongsi segala pengalamanku ini dengan kalian…ambillah sebagai iktibar atau mungkin kisahku ini boleh dianggap sebagai tidak munasabah… mungkin juga kalian akan mengatakan yang aku ni gila…tidak kisah laaa apa interpretasi kalian tentangku…aku sekadar ingin berkongsi…

Lirik lagu ‘Biarlah Rahsia’ dendangan Siti Nurhaliza…oh maaf..Datin Siti Nurhaliza…ah aaf..Datin Siti Nurhaliza... ..dah sinonim ngan diriku…sekelip mata sahaja aku dah hafal lagu tersebut…bila dah hafal.. aper lagi…jadi siulan aku jer laaa…mungkin nih salah satu perubahan besar dalam hidup aku…jika dulu..tiada sekelumit pun rasa suka aku terhadap siti…tetapi…semasa aku sedang ‘sakit’…diriku seperti letih hendak mengutuk mahupun membenci siti…mungkin kerana lagu tersebut sungguh sinonim dgn diriku…

Bait2 dalam lagu tersebut seolah-olah meluahkan isi hatiku…aku seperti hendak meluahkan aper yang kurasa dengan menyanyikan lagu tersebut…liriknya yang seperti pernahkah kau bermimpi seketika..berada di tempatku membayangkan…pahit manis berlalu…entah siapa yang tahu...ya…tiada siapa yang mengerti apa yang kurasa…kalian juga mungkin tidak akan mengerti…hanya ucapan kesabaran sahaja yang mampu diberikan…namun…aku tetap bersyukur…ucapan tersebut menandakan kalian juga menyatakan kesedihan atas apa yang berlaku kepadaku…mungkin nanti kau jua merasakan…berdepan dengan kata menyesakkan…takkan tugumu kebal tiada pertimbangan…mungkin ada di antara kalian pernah merasakannya…asakan dan desakan daripada beberapa kelompok manusia membuatkan aku sesak dan bertambah ‘sakit’…

Keheningan malam membangunkan…kepayahan jiwa meluahkan..andai kau jujur memahami…tiada ku menjauhi…dan kisahku yang masih panjang..menambahkan berat yang memandang…lantas kupendam…kuputuskan biarlah rahsia…every night n every day air mataku jatuh..membasahi pembaringanku…jika ku termenung keseorangan..pasti air mataku gugur…ntahlah…ada yang faham dan ada juga yang kurang mengerti…tidak kurang juga yang tidak bersimpati…yang mana memahami…tidaklah ku jauhkan diri daripada mereka…yang desak dan asak itulah yang cuba kuelakkan…tidak sanggup rasanya berdepan dengan mereka…makin ‘sakit’ diriku yang sedia ‘sakit’ ini…ibu juga turut bersedih melihat anaknya ketika sedang ‘sakit’…

Orang takkan faham dan tak mungkin mengerti….diriku semakin hari semakin tidak bermaya…namun aku masih waras…dan ingat akan peganganku…aku masih mengharapkan pertolongan daripada Allah untuk pulih seperti sedia kala…mungkin itu juga doa ibu dan baba setiap hari…berdoa agar aku ‘sihat’ semula…tak sanggup agaknya mereka melihat aku begini…siang malam aku berdoa…memohon daripada Yang Maha Esa…hanya kepadaNya aku berserah…aku terfikir juga…mungkin ada hikmah di sebalik segalanya…setiap sesuatu kejadian itu ada hikmahnya…di kala itulah hatiku mula berbelah bahagi…mungkin kelewatan ini memberi peluang kepadaku untuk menikmati saat2 bersama keluarga…sebelum aku meninggalkan mereka…tapi aku terfikir juga…sampai bila Allah akan tangguh proses aku utk ‘sembuh’…arghhhhh…aku pun buntu….

‘sakit’ku terubat sedikit tatkala aku sibuk dengan worldcup…hampir setiap match aku tonton…tp tumpuanku lebih kepada pasukan2 pilihan aku…mulanya brazil…tp bila brazil tewas pada suku akhir…tumpuan 100% aku beri pada team Azzurri…ternyata tidak sia2 aku bersengkang mata menonton especially final…bila mana italic menang 5-3 ke atas france....melalui sepakan penalty…tuh yang wat suspen tuh…sib baik barthez dah tua…n buffoon muda lagik…kalau time barthez muda…france mungkin juara…dan kalau zizou tak kena kad merah…pasti france julang piala tuh…dan kalau juga henry tak dikeluarkan…sudah tentu france mengulangi kejayaan wcup98…

Erm…back to my story…kesakitan..penderitaan..dan kesengsaraan aku nih…ditambah pula dengan satu insiden yang tak mungkin aku akan lupakan sampai mati…begitu juga dengan ibu…yang sangat2 terluka dengan insiden tersebut…insiden nih terjadi pada malam persandingan kak e…anak mak longku sebelah ibu…malam sebelumnya aku berjaya mengelak daripada berdepan dengan situasi ini…jika tidak mungkin 2 kali aku kena…memang aku dah dapat agak semua ini akan berlaku…patut pun aku berat hati hendak pergi…satu sebab aku ‘sakit’…satu lagik aku dapat rasakan laa yang ini akan berlaku…ternyata sangkaanku tidak meleset…malam nikah aku berjaya elak…bila mana kau buat2 menyuap kuih kat si kecil sofia…anak abg nasri…anak ketiga mak long…dia berdiri betul2 sebelah aku…menanti aku untuk mengangkat kepala…tp aku tunduk..sehinggalah dia beredar dari situ…aku tarik nafas panjang…lega…

Tapi..aku terperangkap jua masa malam persandingan di dewan…aku pun heran…macam mana sebesar2 dewan tuh…terserempak juga…dia yang aku maksudkan nih..bukannya aku tak kenal…sepupu ibuku…kami memang rapat…maknya bukannya org lain..adik arwah nenek aku…dan tok uteh nih pun banyak berjasa dengan keluarga kami…dialah yang jaga aku dan adik2 ku masa kami kecik2 dlu…aku sayang tok uteh ini seperti arwah mak tok aku jugak…erm…cuma mulut anak dia yang kurang menyenangkan…haa…insiden tuh masa aku, ibu, pakcik nen, ngan uncle seth tengah diskas pasal petronas…aku pun baru jer diperkenalkan oleh ibu pada uncle seth…yang selama ini hanya berhubung denganku menerusi sms sahaja…don’t get it wrong here…aku minta pertolongan daripadanya utk tgk2 kan sahaja…kenapa lewat sangat aku dapat keje…masa dia tengah terang2 kan..pasal kes miri aku tuh…(x yah laa aku story pasal kes nih)…datang plak sepupu mak aku td…aku gelar dia pakcik r laa…tiba2 sahaja dia meluru kat aku…
“intan dah keje lum?”
“blum…”lemah aku jawab dia…aku dah agak dah…dia memang suka soalan ni…
“apsal lambat sangat?”
“ntah…”aish dia nih…mana laa aku tau…mesti dia kata aku teruk laa tak dapat keje lagi…
Abis jer dia tanya aku…dia terus pasang telinga dengar penerangan uncle seth…siap tanya soalan lagik bagi pihak aku…aisshhh…melampau tul…ibu ngan aku bengang ngan sikap dia…perangainya makin menjadi2 sejak anak keduanya dapat belajar kat jepun…ye laa kan…banding ngan aku..belajar local..sebaya dengan aku anaknya tuh…anak bongsu dia yang sebaya dengan adikku nenny lak dapat pergi Indonesia wat medic…kira anak2 dia power2 laa…aku tak kisah…bagi aku…tuh rezeki masing2…balik jer rumah…cik sabar, kakak mak aku lak story…rupa2nya…kat meja ramai sedara mara aku…dia heboh2kan…macam nih dier cakap…
“TU LAA…TGK SI JAMILAH NGAN NASIR TUH…TAK ABIS KETUK…TUH YANG MACAM2 JADIK…TAK ABIS2…”
Uikss…apa hal la pulak dengan statement nih…hatiku direntap…ibu tergamam…hati kami remuk dan sedih dengar…sort of family aku nih malang…oh yaa…ketuk tuh cara berubat yang dia syorkan ibu ngan baba pergi…kononnya boleh buang semua benda2 halus nih…or sakit2 semua…ibu n baba pernah pergi sekali jer…lepas tuh dah tak pergi…jauh tuh satu sebab…yang lainnya tak yakin…dan tak tahan…sakit…bukannya dia guna ayat Al Quran ataupun ubat2 macam doktor2…cuma ketuk dengan kayu…dan akan tinggalkan kesan macam kena bekam kat tempat kena ketuk tuh…ish…sebab nak promot cara berubat tuh..sanggup keluarkan statement seolah2 kami nih malang?walhal semua tuh kuasa Allah…itu kan dugaan yang Allah beri…ibu sakit tyroid pun dugaan… baba belum pulih sepenuhnya pun dugaan…aku belum bekerja pun dugaan…itu semua ujian daripada Allah…kita tidak boleh mengganggap itu semua malang atau sial…dan mana mungkin aku sekeluarga dapat melupakan insiden nih…aku macam berdendam dengannya…

KAULAH SEGALANYA~~~

2006-04-02T18:48:00.000-07:00

Wanita baik itu...

Adalah ibuku

Yang mengajarkan padaku arti perjuangan

Dan mencontohkan padaku indahnya kesabaran dan keikhlasan

Kucoba meniti jalan hidup ini

Dengan tuntunan tangannya yang lembut

Dikala aku terjatuh, ia selalu siap membantuku

Dengan kasihnya yang tulus

Suaranya yang lembut ketika membaca Al Quran

Menghantarkan tidurku ke alam mimpi

Tangannya yang lembut siap menuntunku untuk belajar meniti hidup ini

Kasihnya yang tulus selalu siap mendorong semangatku

Bagiku ia adalah pahlawan

Bagiku ia adalah guru

Bagiku ia adalah sufi

Ya Allah....

Terima kasih telah

Kau kirimkan

Seorang wanita mulia dalam hidupku

Sehingga aku tahu untuk apa aku hidup

puisi buat ibu..segala-galanya hanya untukmu...ermmm...lately..i really2 depressed...got to know my mum tak sihat...hope everything is ok laa kan...everyday...every night i pray for her... tatau laa...i can't live...if living is without ibu...serius...nothing in the world can replace ibu... ibu banyak berkorban utk intan...ibu banyak berjasa...intan tak mungkin balas jasa ibu...cuma aper yang mampu intan buat...hanyalah dengan memberi kesenangan dan kebahagiaan kepada ibu... ibu memang kuat...very strong...ibu tak pernah mengungkit...tak pernah mengeluh...sakit2 pun masih larat membuat kerja rumah..memasak and sumer laaa...cuma aku yang risau...tak bagi ibu buat keje berat2...

aku tak nak kehilangan ibu...aku boleh jadik giler!!serius...aku tak dapat n tamau bayangkan tuh semua...aper yang aku mahu...ibu akan sembuh secepat mungkin...insya Allah...doa2kan lah semoga ibuku cepat sembuh...amin...

Ya Allah Ya Rahman Ya Rahim...

Aku menadah kedua belah tanganku

Memanjatkan doa

Memohon kemaafan dan keampunan

Menagih simpati darimu Tuhan

Yang Maha Pengampun lagi Maha Pengasih

Air mata yang berderai

Membawa seribu satu maksud

Penuh dengan harapan

Meminta agar ibuku

Dipanjangkan umur

Dimurahkan rezeki

Dan dilindungi Allah selalu

Begitulah doaku

Untukmu,ibu...

To know you

Is to know love;

Abundant,

Overflowing,

Encompassing all around you.

People may hurt you,

Neglect you,

Misunderstand you,

Yet still you love.

Your love reaches out

In tenderness,

In empathy,

In understanding.

I can't help but be

A little bit better,

A little bit wiser,

A little bit stronger,

Because I have known

Mother love

Such as yours.

TEACHER NADIA

2006-03-23T18:45:00.000-08:00

"good morning,teacher nadia..."
"assalamualaikum,cikgu nadia..."

hahaha...words i used to hear from the kids lately..everyday...monday till friday...but today,i'm gonna miss all that greetings...mc la plak kan...sakit mata plus demam plus teinga bengkak...n gastric...huh...4 in one...bukan all-4-one yer...yup!that is my current job...jd cikgi kat skolah kebangsaan alam megah 2...skamd...huhu...dah nak sebulan pun keje sana...best aaa...mumuler tuh rasa tak larat gak laa...ngan kerenah dak2 kecik nih...lelama...i get used to it....

got to teach std 3 and 4...science subject...ok laa kan...subject yang aku ske pun...lgpun in eng...so takde laa kekok...ok jer...istilah2 sains in bm nih...i'm not that good laa...dah lupa...so if in eng...no hal..hehehehe... erm...lama aku tak story perkembangan aku kan...tpkan...lama tak tulis...dah tatau nak citer camner...huhu...
back to school...teringat masa kanak2 dlu...skolah2 rendah...nowadays kids are totally different from those days...dari segi saiz and also their ways of thinking...serius lain...they are more childish...compared to us last time...std 6 mcm std 3/4...isk2...

biler dah sebulan mengajar ih kan...aku rasa mcm dah into this profession lak...coz kesian tgk diorunk ih... bukan nak buruk2 kan ke aper...tp cam sedih laa...coz dah darjah 3 pun ader yang tak reti baca...so i had to teach from basic...kena sabar laa...kalau baik takper...nakal nyer...masya Allah...Allah jer yang tau... there's one boy in 4 tekun(one of the class i taught)...aku suruh bukak buku...bley plak dier crawl under the desk from behind to front...adeh laaa...shahiran2...nama dier shahiran...in this class ader dak tuh comel giler...as u know laa kan...i love kids...so diorunk ih aku treat cam adik2 aku...anak pun boleh kott...n ths cute boy named adli... aku ske panggil dier...kira teacher's pet laa this boy...huhu...boleh tak aku ih?

besides that, pemangkin2 len ader gak...faris...khushairi...megat...hakim...nazrim...luqman...huhu...knp sumer lelaki yer...ader gak pompuan yang comel n bakal jadik cun...amira syazana...sharifah...fathina...huhu...saper nak?aku leh rekemen...tp jauh sgt beza umur daaa...huhu...

ermmm...yang best skolah rendah ih kan...cikgu dier muda2...sporting lakz tuh...ader sorunk ih..nama dier fakhrudin...cam garang jer muka...umur baru 25...erk...sebaya raph la plak...muka cam pae...hensem laa..tp cam dah kawen jer...haha...ader sorunk ih cam berlagak...ikram nama dier...ajar muzik...tp actually baik... muka jer kerek diorunk ih...ustaz lak ramai...ader laa sorunk ustaz ih...isteri cikgu ctu gak...tp bapak gatal nyer mata...laki mmg camtuh...ustaz zawahil nama dier...isk2...lawak memang lawak...tp ustaz tajuddin lagik sorunk tuh lagik lawak...hensem gak...org tganu...yang ih tak sure...dah kawen lum...mcm dah...mcm lum...yang kompem lum kawen...2 orunk...en zamani ngan najib...yang najib tuh sutun sket...yang zamani tuh org sabah...

hahaha...takkan cikgu laki jer ek...ermmm...cikgu2 pompuan dier best2...baik2 belaka...paling lawak kak midah...mulut dier perghh...part gossip paling cun...ader yang muda dr aku...zarina nama dier...ader len2 gak yang aku ngam...kak maria aka rosemaria...cun melecun dier ih...ader kak ira...kak jarah...kak rojiyah... kak zu(isteri ustaz zawahil tuh)...kak ayu...kak nissa...kak fairuz...asma'...arfa(dier ih sementara gak)...kak liza...kak fiza...kak radiah...uishhh..ramai gakz...pendek kata...memang best....

skamd memang best aaaa....world!

KINI TINGGAL KENANGAN

2006-02-20T00:15:00.000-08:00

aku terkezut..terdiam..terkedu...terkelu...terpana...tertampar...n akhirnya aku tersedar...dari mimpi...taku guna aku teruskan tdo...terus hanyut ngan hayalan...dah tiba masanya aku cermin diri aku sendiri...bila aku pk2 balik...aku nih bodoh kan...tp..bukan bodoh...cuma baru belajar...aku baru belajar mengenal erti kehidupan sebenar...

langit tak selalunyer cerah...kadang2 mendung gak...mcm ari ih...aku dapat satu tamparan hebat dari seseorang yang aku sayang...adehss...pedih siot...dlu aku pernah kena gak...pastuh aku berazam tak nak kena dah...tetiba tahun 2006 ih aku kena lagik...adeehsss....sakit dowh... pedih2...2003 aku nagis biler kena...dekat seminggu baru reda...tp sampai skang still ader saki baki kesakitan dier lagik...nih 2006 ih..kena lagik....ntah laaa...nak nagis pun watper...keje bodoh kan...sabar nadia...sabar...jangan nangisss!!!

aku kena sedar diri laa....saper laa aku...n skang baru aku paham kenapa....owh...like that laa the story...aku paham dah...no wonder laaa...it's kay...ati manusia beb...ske ati laa kan nakwat apa... pape pun yang terjadik aku anggap ianya kenangan yang cukup utk wat aku insaf n berhati2 lepas ih...yer laaa...dlu aku kater..pisang takkan berbuah 2 kali...skali...dah dua kali pun...so pasnih takkan berbuah 3 kali ker?

adeh laaa...sakit ih...sedih pun ader gak...tp nak wat camner...nanti aku dapat laa kot yang sempurna...tp aku sayang!!!!!kenapa bg aku tamparan yang maha hebat ih....aduhsss... obsesinovinoids...nama ih pun dapat sempenanya...aduhsss....mcm maner aku nak explain ek... dah tak terexplain...cuma aku leh kot cleankan aku nyer pc pasnih...leh laa buang per yang patut...bleh save 3 gig kan...aduhhhss...boleh ker?aku still sayang tpnyer...camner ek...aku cleankan aper yang ptut laaa kot...kat email ker..friendster ker...boleh kot...takde laa nampak sangat...yg dlm pc jd kenangan laaa...

what to do...aku takleh nak paksa beb...simpan sorunk2 jer aku selama ih...nih nak meleytop nih...coz terperanjat giler babeng nyer...hahaha...aku malas nak mention nama...even aku tau mende nih takkan dibaca olehnyer...tp.............................

pape pun...aku tetap appreciate dirinya...tetap berterima kasih coz sudi gak layan aku kekadang...msg ker tepon ker...email ker...layan jer otak giler aku ih...aku tetap doakan dier bahagia selalu...n gembira selalu...take care...eishhhh...malu lak...dah aa aku ih slalu gak laa...bg2 msg yang ala2 suka gitu..yer laa...kater sayang kan...

adeh laaa...it's kay laa...aku dah paham skang...kenapa...
kenapa harus ku bercinta..kenapa ku percaya...kenapa harus ku tanggung semua... kenapa harus ku dikecewakan...kan dah campur aduk dah lagu ih...

selamat tinggal wahai rakanku..........................semoga kau bahagia....i'm sure u know who u r... kalau kau baca pun...daaa~~~

IMPIAN KASIH

2006-01-26T01:35:00.000-08:00

wakakakak...sumer lagu2 ih...adalah luahan hati aku...

Kasih…dengarlah…
Hatiku berbicara…
Kasih…izinkan..
Diriku bertanya…
Bisakah cinta bersemi…
Mengundang restu Ilahi…
Adakah bahagia yang di pimpin
Menjadi satu realiti…

Kasih…kusedari…
Kekurangan ini…
Kasih…kuinsafi…
Kelemahan diri…
Ku ingin sunting dirimu…
Menjadi raja di hatiku…
Sebagai isteri yang berbudi…
Kebanggaan para suami..

Wanita…
Hiasan dunia…
Seindah hiasan adalah wanita solehah…
Yang akan membahagiakan…
Syurga di dlm rumahtangga…

Hanya itu…
Yang aku inginkan..
Dari insan yang amat ku sayang…
Damaikanlah..resah hatiku…
Aku rindu kasih dan sayang…
Terimalah seadanya..
Buat hiasan pelamin hidupku…

Wanita…
Hiasan dunia…
Seindah hiasan adalah wanita solehah…
Yang akan membahagiakan…
Syurga di dlm rumahtangga…

Andainya tiada jodoh untuk ke singgahsana…
Ku pasrahkan segalanya...
Kerna takdir yang akan menentukan…
Impian kasih…

Lagu ih kalau orunk bg aku kan best…damn!

AKU TAKKAN MELUPAKANMU

2006-01-26T01:32:00.000-08:00

Terindah…
Lagu yang terindah…
Sengaja aku cipta…
Untukmu yang terindah…
Semoga dapat meluruhkan…
Segala keraguan…
Semoga dapat menghancurkan..
Kerasnya batu prasangka…

Aku…
Takkan melupakanmu…
Takkan meninggalkanmu…
Takkan menduakan cintamu…
Ku bersumpah…

Aku…
Tak ingin mengingkar janji…
Tak ingin menjadi duri..
Tak ingin menjadi api cinta yang membara…

Rebahlah kau di pelukku..
Lepaskan resahmu…
Bebaskan jiwamu…
Dari prasangka…
Prasangka burukmu..
Dari kerasnya…
Batu curiga…

Aku…
Takkan melupakanmu…
Takkan meninggalkanmu…
Takkan menduakan cintamu…
Ku bersumpah…

Aku…
Tak ingin mengingkar janji…
Tak ingin menjadi duri..
Tak ingin menjadi api cinta yang membara…

Senyumlah melati…
Sambutlah mentari…
Raihlah cintamu…
Hadir…..

Aku…
Takkan melupakanmu…
Takkan meninggalkanmu…
Takkan menduakan cintamu…
Ku bersumpah…

Aku…
Tak ingin mengingkar janji…
Tak ingin menjadi duri..
Tak ingin jadi api cinta yang membara…

Sesungguhnyer...aku takkan melupakan dirimu....

AKU TANPA CINTAMU

2006-01-26T01:29:00.000-08:00

Telah ku mungkiri janjiku lagi
Walau seribu kali kuulang sendiri
Aku takkan tempuh lagi
Apakah kau terima cintaku lagi
Setelah ku berpaling
Dari pandanganmu yang kabur kerna jadinya aku

Mengapa cintamu tak pernah hadir
Subur dalam jiwaku
Agar ku tetap bahagia
Tanpa cintaku
Tanpa kau di sana
Aku tanpa cintamu
Bagai laying-layang terputus talinya

Telah ku mungkiri janjiku lagi
Walau seribu kali kuulang sendiri
Aku takkan tempuh lagi
Apakah kau terima cintaku lagi
Setelah ku berpaling
Dari pandanganmu yang kabur kerna jadinya aku

Masihkah ada sekelumit belas
Demi sekasih mu insan…
Untuk ku berpaling dan bersandar
Aku di sini
Tetap terus mencuba
Untuk beroleh cintamu
Walau ranjaunya menusuk pedih

REPORT DUTY @ KLCC

2006-01-26T01:27:00.000-08:00

Last Friday…20hb…I had to report to klcc…telling petronas that I’ve graduated from utp…and to know the interview result…gedebak-gedebuk gak laa jantung..kot laa tak recommended..aku nak keje maner woiii..serun2…went there reramai…ader hasfa…nina…nor…husna…waida…khuzai ngan shon…gi reramai ih best sket…takde laa aku sesat…d mana kitorunk pun pening naik lif kat klcc tuh...skali tgk cam jakun kitorunk ih…maner taknyer…naik silap lif…nak gi floor 9…naik lif 42…so how? Kena laa turun balik…naik lif yang betul…pastuh nak carik org nak direfer lagik…adeh..lawak2…dah aa kat ctu kurenk sistematik…ader ker…we have to go up n down…can use only 1 pass at a time…so dah gi esu…trun balik…amik pass utk go up to floor 63…hr plak…ish2…tah pape…skali dah aa…

Kat esu tuh…leh plak aku terserempak ngan Nuben…haa!!kwn aku maser primary school…wahhh…sudah bertambah hensem si Nuben nih…dier ih bukannyer typical Indian pun…modern type of Indian…aku nak tego takut dier tak ingat…yer laaa…dlu aku len…adeh laa…tetiba teringat lak zaman kecik2 dlu…main kejar2..siap aku ngan si Nuben ih kena denda coz bising dalam kelas…kuang3…those old days…ewahhh…mcm tua sangat aku ih…muda lagik maa…baru 22…kes3…

After waiting for half an hour…sungguh lama d ctu…at last we were entertained by an officer…mintak sumer particulars yang patut…just to cop?huh!to cop just for about 2 minutes…and we have to wait for half an hour?giler tak berbaloi…after that wait some more at hr office…ayoyo…lama maaa…tangan dah sejuk2 nak tau result…pas dier ckp recommended jer…panas trus badan aku…perghhhhh…at least aku lega n leh mengharap lagik keje ngan petronas…aku ih sebenarnyer nak sgt keje ngan petronas..tatau apsal.. my aunt sumer pun bg encouragement…keje ngan company cam petronas ih…maybe banyak benefit kot…kot laa…yer ker raph?

Aku…hasfa…nina…husna…waida ngan shon gi dlu…nor ngan khuzai tak sampai lagik…they all from melaka…so after setteled all the reporting stuff…we went to suria klcc…yer laa…dah sampai sana…aper kes trus balik…perut lapar giler lak tuh… nor ngan khuzai waited us at a&w…sampai jerk at a&w tuh…nor sambut aku ngan ayat tak best!

“nadia…kau rugi laa…raph baru jer pergi…”

“alaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa….”giler frust

“tuh aa kau…lambat sekentut jer…”hasfa nyampuk

“tuh aaa…asal asyik kau jer terjumpa dier nor…”aku tak puas ati...

“abih aa kau nadia…takde jodoh laa kau ngan dier…”hasfa mencelah lagik

“pas kat aku jer aa nadia…”nor ckp

“heyyyyyyy…”tuh jer yang aku mampu balas…

Haha…jgn marah yer raph…conversation ih tak disengajakan…tp memang frust laa…first time tuh..maser nor..asfa ngan enon(adik nor) gi klcc..mumuler aku nak join…tp aku penat sgt..maser tuh kitorunk balik hari jer..from utp to kl…nak amik baju dinner…adeh…kalau aku join..dah lama dapat jumpa…ish2…takde rezeki namanyer… skali lagik aku takde rezeki..nak jumpa…maser gi report ih laa…adeh…

Khuzai lak ckp…jgn mengharap..sure jumpa…maner leh…ati manusia maa…cannot run from those feelings…adeh…maner taknyer…everytime jejak klcc…mesti terlintas nak terserempak ngan raph of coz…n ngan angah…tp selalunyer memang takkan nyer laa…ish2…len2 kali laa kot…huhu…Then we all makan2…jalan2…duduk2…terserempak plak ngan dweng dak batch aku ngan aweknyer…haha…kantoi d ctu..siap aku nampak adegan suap menyuap lagik..adeh laa…pakwe makwe zaman skang…hehe…tak lupa gak…nampak shera ngan pakwe dier…uiyoooo…giler ayu kuar dating…skirt labuh lagik…bagus2…sajer aku tamau tego..last2 aku msg dier…tuh pun aku dah kat sentral..dah nak balik…dier punyer laa terkejut…hahahah…kantoiii…

OPEN HOUSE~~~

2006-01-26T01:26:00.000-08:00

Huhu…aku baru nak menulis mende yang dah terjadik more than a month ago…11/12.. family aku wat open house…letih gak maser tuh…maner taknyer…aku balik dr utp 9hb…11 dah wat open house..2 hari after balik tuh…kemas umah lagik…masak lagik…hahah…takde laa aku masak main dish…just masak side dishes jer…cam nasik impit…potong2 buah…kuang3…main dish nyer nasik beriani…pak manap nyer laa of coz…pak manap nih…kira cam family nyer catering laa…bukan maksudnyer kitorunk own that company…tapi slalu tempah from this pak manap laaa…
Aku jemput ramai gak laa…but then yang turn up just 6 person kot…sumer member2 ssp…dak2 utp takde…it’s kay laa kan…coz sumer pun penat…br balik from utp… raph plak kat tganu…jauh maa…abg kena balik kampong…arel plak jiran kawen… pra dah gi kemaman...training…nak wat camner..memasing ader hal..yus pun tak dtg tp abg lan(pakwe yus) yang dtg…ish2…bagus abg lan nih..sanggup dtg..even ujan2 pun…tq2…ermmm…yang ramai nyer kwn2 ibu…as usual laa…sumer memang nak sangat dtg umah aku…tatau apsal…pemes gak ibu aku ih yer…kira cam sumer orunk kat skolah tuh ske kat ibu…bukan cikgu2 jer…anak murid sampai ader yang nak jadik anak angkat…so how?
Tapi…kira alhamdulillah..berjaya gak wat open house…first time tuh…selama ih bukan tak nak wat…tak cukup tempat…umah ss14 kecik maa…kang berlanggar2 lak…kahkahkah…thanx to my friends who came…sayang korunk…anem..shera..naim..t-rah..cipah…lizasue…kak ngah (kakak lizasue) n pakwenyer…tq so much…

ABANG~~~

2006-01-24T16:31:00.000-08:00

adeh la...aku paste gambar ariel ih lambat...tp dier ter ke atas...nak wat camner...nih aa kwn abg...kat bwh br aku stroy mory pasal abg...adeh laa....ariel ih pun dak kembara...now prac kat rnz...kat tempat butet dlu...kuang3...hensem tak?

hoho...got the chance to berkampung at the cc...yer laa kan..nama jer duk kat bandar...tp..tenet takde kat umah...aper kes...tm2...kater jer dah berwajah baru...efficient kunun..tapi...lembab masukkan talian tepon kat umah aku...cit porah!

haaaa...aku nak citer serba sikit pasal someone yang aku kenal...mamat kat sebelah ih...hensem tak?ih yang aku dah kaler2 warna merah...huhu....aku kenal abg ih...sejak 2 tahun lepas...huhu..ramai gak kenalan aku ih yer...dak ih sumer orunk panggil abg...jangan silap tafsir lak...bukan abang dalam erti kater pakwe aku...ish2...dak ih muda setahun dr aku...aku ih bukan aper...just suka2 jer kawan...mumuler tuh minat coz muka dier cam hairi othman...pelakon tuh... minat gitu2 je...yer laaa...ati maner leh bahagi 2...sorunk cukup laaa...

abg ih tinggi mak aih...pendek kater aku mendongak sokmo aa kalau cakap ngan dier ih..dier ih tough orunknyer...coz slalu ler panjat2 gunung ih...dak kembara...what can i say...dah diorunk ih stamina mengalahkan juara jalan kaki dunia...giler tak tahu erti penat...perghhhh...kagum gue...

abg ih now prac kat colgate...aku yang rekemen..chewah...ader pelapis di ctu...raph-aku-abg... best tak?kuang3....kwn2 abg ih pun dah jadik macam kawan aku gak...tp yang aku kenal rapat pun...arel ngan pra..ariel hensem kan...pra lak macam cina...huhu...gambar si pra ih aku takde la plak...hehe...

GRAD!!!!

2006-01-23T02:29:00.000-08:00

haha...i've graduated...officially i'm now known as penanam anggur...kahkahkah...adeh laa...long time i don write here..maner tak nyer...tepon kat umah lum masuk...apertah lagik tenet...aku nih pun skejap jer ih..there were so many things happened selama aku tak tulis kat blog ih... nanty ader maser aku tulis aaa ek...

just nak announce...to all my friends out there...aku dah grad!!!tgh tunggu offer keje~~~hahahah
yeayyy...alhamdulillah...after 5 years of studying...

SALAM AIDILFITRI

2005-11-11T11:13:00.000-08:00

yo...wassup!!!just wanna write something that just happened...yeahhh...hari raya laa of course... it was great...it was fun...but damn too short laa the holidays...got the chance to spend only about a week at home...i mean...5 days in jb...and 2 days in sj...ermmm...nice huh~~

went back to jb was great...but staying there was nightmare...huh!!can't explain here why...i would rather keep it to myself...ermmm...1st day of raya of course laa salam2 and wat so ever... syahdu gak laaa...n as usual...i cried...yer laa...teringat mak tok...bak tok...yg dah pergi...sedih2... teringat dosa2 kat baba..ibu semua...bertambah laa sedih....

then...visited my relatives...as usual...convoy reramai...meriah wooo...about 6 cars aa yg pi... tahun ih kurenx sket aaa kan...coz mama yam ngan pakcik nin tak turun...so kurenk kete aa... start with tok uteh's house...yeahhhh...rempeyek!!!umah tok uteh yg paling best...yer laa...dah macam nenek sendrik...mak tok dah takde...dier laa pengganti...seems that umah tuh yang paling best...so we spent there quite a long time...

then move to umah to man...dekat jer kan...umah ih tak meriah sangat aaa...as usual mcm tuh laa...minum2...then trus gi umah mak yah...ermm...my mum's eldest brother's house...best2... lepak2 sampai maghrib...then..went back home...

mlm plak...went to my fav uncle's house...hehe...best2..papa yem slalu bg duit raya banyak... best2...n anak dier plak hensem..kakakakaka...kazen sendrik laa...aparaaa...ude jer ader...along pi raya umah mak mertua...cet!dah aa lama tak jumpa...ish2...

2nd day lak...tak buat pape...mlm tuh ader kenduri..so bz memasak aa...hahahahha...aku memasak?oh tidak...aku tlg2 jer...mlm tuh memang meriah...mak long n anak2 dier turun...setelah lama tak turun kazen2 aku tuh....br thn ih dpt kumpul...meriah dowh...haaa... time ih aa along dtg nwk isteri dier...yeay...aku 1st time jumpa...ok gakz...hehehe...aku lari2 kan diri aa dr along ih...ader sejarah silam...kuang3...skandal ngan kazen sendrik..aper kes?
lari punya lari...tetiba dier tegur..."hoi...pendek rambut???"hahahaha...dier memang anti aku rambut pendek..so how?aku rimas aa rambut pjg2...

3rd day...yeay...FELDA TAIB ANDAK aaa aper lagik...yeahhhh...impian jadik kenyataan...aku sampai2 kul 11.30...org dah penuh nak mampus...dah aa panas...tak dapat jumpa mawi in person aa tapi...just dapat rakam video dier nyanyi jer...cam nak pengsan aku...ibu n baba tgk dari jauh...aku ngan neni lak...duk btul2 depan stage...panggil2 mawi tak lambai...maser dier trun stage tuh...aku jerit nama dier...mawi toleh...dier lambai balik....aduhhhhh...cair dowh... gembira nak mati...yeahhhhhh...akhirnya~~~

RAMADAN AL MUBARAK

2005-10-04T23:42:00.000-07:00

ermmm...n ramadan comes again...i'm looking forward to this month of ramadan...this is when i can fulfill my wish...haha...guess laa aper...sure tak dapat der..huhu...

anyway...to all my muslim friends...happy ramadan..may this fasting month brings joy and Nur into ur life and receive Allah's forgiveness...

menyambut indahnya ramadhan...hamba mohon atas lidah yang tak terjaga...janji yang terabaikan...dan semua yang pernah menyakitkan...maaf zahir dan batin...selamat berpose~~~

p/s:sok kejut saya ek...hehe...x bangun lak kang...jgn lupa sahur ek...kang sakit...saya gak yang susah hati...=)

WHY???

2005-09-27T10:01:00.000-07:00

erm...so many things happened to me lately...but i would rather put them aside...as there are many other important things i that have to think about...but as i sit back...i kept on thinking about this matter...

i don't know why...n i don't know how to begin...ntahlaa...org kata...dah sampai seru kot...agak nyer laa...but then...i'm too young....ahhhh...wateva...the thing is that...i don't like to be controlled...ske ati aku laa nak wat per...n i don't care...what u gonna say...so what???arghhhhh...aku kebuntuan...

huh...b4 aku melarat ke masalah tuh...aku tgh serun gak ih...about the petronas interview that's gonna be on friday...30th sept...arghhhh...pressure...haha...at first...i was scheduled to be on thursday...but during the briefing...there was changes....from thursday becomes friday....huh!aku nak abis cecepat...

lately...there's one song that really2 meant for me...the song called kenapa...sang by shazzy...feat lah v.e...ermmm...and the song goes like this....

Sebelum ku kenalimu
hidupku cukup ngan suka duka
tak pernahku sangka semuanya akan berubah
dikau bagaikan cahaya, bagi jiwa ku ini
tak mungkinku lupa katamu kan sentiasa di sisi

Bagaikan satu kisah cinta kita berdua ke mana
asyik berpegangan tangan orang lain dilupakan
apa terjadi, diriku ni masih tertekan
hati dilukai setelah janji ditunaikan

Tiap kali ku fikir, tiada guna bersedih
rakan-rakan katakan buang masa ku cintai
dikau punca pedihku, tiada baik darimu
tiada langsung yang benar dalam ungkapan bibirmu

Kenapa harus ku bercinta
kenapa ku begini
kenapa harus ku tanggung semua
kenapa harus ku bercinta
kenapa ku percaya
kenapa aku diperbodoh kasih

Tak mungkin ku lupa kali pertama bersua
tak sangka, dikau kan menjadi pedih yang kan dalami jiwa
siang malam termenung, sedih memakan hati
tak pernah ku ingat ku boleh diluka begini
namun ku cekal hatiku, tuk melupakanmu
ku tahu kau begitu
malas ku nak rayu, buang tenagaku
kau takkan mendengarku
selamat tinggal oh kasih
janganlah iri hati
hidup baru kan mula bila terbitnya mentari

Kenapa harus ku bercinta
kenapa ku percaya
kenapa harus ku diperbodohkan
kenapa harus ku merayu
kenapa ku percaya
kenapa harus ku dikecewakan kasih

kenapa harus ku bercinta
Kenapa ku percaya
kenapa harus ku diperbodohkan
kenapa harus ku merayu
kenapa ku bercinta
kenapa harus ku pegang janjimu

Kenapa harus ku merayu
kenapa ku bercinta
kenapa harus ku diperbodohkan
kenapa harus ku percaya
kenapa ku bercinta
kenapa harus ku pegang janjimu
kasih…

Sekian lama telah ku simpan rasa ini di hati
baru kini ku berani tuk mengatakan
dikau punca segala, kepedihan di hatiku
tak ingin lagi ku lihat wajahmu di hadapanku

even though kisah nih dah lama...but then...aku still menantikan kepulangan kau...even now someone suddenly came into my life...but then...still cannot replace u...kalau ader jodoh antara kita...kita akan jumpa semula...biarlah perpisahan ini mengajar kita erti kehidupan dan erti sebuah cinta...dab percayalah...nescaya satu hari nanti kau akan sedar dan akan kembali kepadaku....dan ketika itu....aku pasti akan menerima kau semula...

dan jika aku ditakdirkan bukan utkmu...aku redha...nak wat camner kan...tapi...aku still sayang kat kau... sampai bila2...aku sentiasa doakan kesejahteraan kau di sana...walau jauh di mata...tp dekat di hati org kata...hahaha..poyo lak ayat2 aku ih...tp seriusly...aku maksudkannya....

to A...aku akan cuba terima kau...nak wat camenr kan...kau terlalu baik kepada aku...tak adil kalau aku buat tak endah pada kau...nway...if u read this...i'm sure u will...please understand my feelings kay...thanx...

KISAH DI TIOMAN LAGIK

2005-09-22T16:04:00.000-07:00

enjoy the view~~~~~~of tioman~~~

buih2 ombak~~~`
rock island~~~
the sea~~~
jernih kan air dier....best2....jom2 gi honeymoon kat sini~~~~jom laaaa~~~jom laaa~~~

PULAU TIOMAN

2005-09-22T15:35:00.000-07:00

ho yeah...enjoy ur life....tuh moto idup aku dr dulu lagik...watper nak pening2 pale otak beb...enjoy activities ngan geng2 aku...lg laa best...not like certain people laa kan...dok terperap jer...bosan aaa...takde aktiviti...pastuh nak jeles2 lak ngan aku...aper kes...sendrik carik kwn aaa...dah takde kwn nak tuduh aku nak kat pakwe dier...aper kes...
arghhhhh...luper laaa citer2 busuk n hangit cam sial tuh...citer ih lagik best....aku nak citer pasal kisah kitorang...aku...asfa...nor...nina...n waida...we went to pulau tioman...last week...haha...great huh?dapat adiah treasure hunt...saper sangka...1st time join...strike no 7...ullamak...bangga gak laa d ctu...tp memang laaa enjoy pergi sana...memang best...superb nyer laa..

lihat laa team aku...aku...nor...nina...asfa...tgk laaa no kete aku tuh...SixTy9..super nice kan...ur number right?haha...tuh yang bawak tuah tuh...lucky number....yang membawa kitorang ke pulau tioman...ho yeahhh...best2...
fiuuuuu...dah sampai tioman...haha...skejap jer ek...haha...skejap mende..ih naik bot aa ih...1 jam...sib baik aku ader family kat jb...duk umah cik saba semalam..pastuh pepagi dah pi mersing....from mersing...amik bot...pi tioman...sib baik gak laa ader kak mai...org yang kitorang jumpa maser kat mersing...rege bot rm45 jadik rm 30 jer...mmg nice~~~

wahhhhh...cantiknyer tioman...tgk aa ih...angin2....yang bertiup...the sea was damn nice...beautiful....uishhhh...cantik nak mati aaa...serius...rindunyer tioman~~~~
haha...ader gaya cam tiger woods tak?ih kat padang golf dier...kat berjaya resort hotel...huhu...5 star beb...jgn jeles...tp memang bergaya d ctu...hahaha...tgk kayu golf nyer...best tak? uishhh... memang enjoy laa di kala2 takde duit...loan parents aaa aper lagik...

5 star nyer hotel...bilik 4 2 person pun besar sey...aper lagik...kitorang muatkan sampai 5 org...tp aku rasa...10 org pun bley....besar beb...beserk laaa...bilik time bercuti...agak bersepah d ctu...but then....memang enjoy aaa duk kat berjaya hotel n resort ih...maner tak nyer...rege bilik nih jer...satu malam dah rm400 ++...lum lagik suite dier...rm600 ++ maaa...uishhh...tak mampu den....

nih aku ngan nor kat tepi jeti... takut gak laa nak diri tepi ih...aku ih fobia gak ngan laut2 ih...tp dah sampai laut...bantai gak mandi...maner leh tahan beb....cun tak....laut tuh yer...bukan kitorng...aku tau aku tak cun....hahahahaha

view waktu malam kat hotel aka chalet kitorang duduk tuh....cun kan...camera nina...best tak?? aku cam nak pegi lagik jer kat tioman nih...tp memang super nice...(bukan bas tuh yer)...duk kat sini...seriussss...best bangat!!!maser ih kitorang nak pi makan malam...ingat nak bbq...skali tanya2...rm59 nett aaa....bapak mahal...nasik goreng...rm 15...chicken chop...rm 18...aper kes?

nih gambar di kala senja...cantikkan...nyaman..with the sea breeze...perghhh...honeymoon kat sini best gak nih....jom...kita honeymoon sini....sure best...takde gangguan dari org....nyaman jer...memang tenang siottt...memang nak pi honeymoon sini aaa....plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

to be continued....

FRIENDS FOREVER

2005-08-25T22:56:00.000-07:00

pasal convo lagi...best tul convo2 ih...aku memang ske...aku heran gak org tak ske karnival2 cam nih...masa ih aa kau akan rasa cam nak grad cecepat...memang pun...looking at my friends' faces... how glad and proud they were....made me feel happy for them...

nih laa gambar kitorang...geng2 qepoh...hahaa...bukan kitorang ih kepoh...tapi tuh nama cenel irc umah kitorang...yeahhhh...from left:waida...hasfa...mawar...aku...nor...husna...rina...namo... khuzai...and not in the pic...nina...shon..tipah...n pidah....
ermmm...besar tak empayar qepoh ih?bley tahan kan....yeahhhhh....

GRADUATION

2005-08-25T20:49:00.000-07:00

hahaha...tak abis2 lagik aku nak citer pasal graduation awie arituh...tp...convo kali ih memang len sket...ermmm...many surprise happened...1stly...raph tak dapat datang...but it's ok...dier bz... 2ndly...dapat jumpa shahidh!!!after 2 years living utp...jumpa balik...perghhh...amatler seronotnyer rasa ati aku ih....last but not least...jumpa farris@curl???huh!!!yang selama ih kater utp sux!!!datang balik ke utp??amat memeranjatkan d ctu...

aku ambil kesempatan dalam kesempitan utk amik gambar ngan shahidh...sungguh nice~~~
terkelip lak mata aku...slack tul...menyampah beta...yer aaa...gambar dah cun2...tgk aa ih...cam pinang dibelah2 tak?hensem giler shahidh d ctu...tapi tak secocok ngan aku aaa kan...tapi... memang lelaki idaman...tinggi giler...jauh beza ngan aku...tampak protective gitu...cam ibu n baba jer keadaannyer...best2....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MAWI!!

2005-08-25T12:21:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MAWI...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U....

ALLAH SELAMATKAN KAMU...
ALLAH SELAMATKAN KAMU...
ALLAH SELAMATKAN ASMAWI ANI...
ALLAH SELAMATKAN KAMU...

hahahaa....yeahhh...arijadik mawi ari ih...best2...aku harap adiah akus sampai kat umah dier...tepat pada waktunya...ho yeahhh....aku sangat gembira...dah 24 tahun dah mawi...yeahhhhh....semoga dia berbahagia dan success selalu...yeahhhh

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MAWI!!

2005-08-24T21:21:00.000-07:00

AWIECHAN

2005-08-24T09:36:00.000-07:00

ermmm...i still remembered...how we knew each other...that was 2 years ago...but before that...since my 2nd year here...my friends and i already spotted this guy...i do admire him last time...hahaha...he seemed to be highlighted as he is damn tall...serius...n his face looks like shaggy in the film scooby doo...seriously...more or less the same laaa...n i want to know him...

until one day...i was told by my friend that his name is shahidh... haaa...cute name huh...then...after about a year...i got the chance to know him more through chatting...it was like i don't know that was him in the first place...then...after asking him...how's he look like...so when he told me...i was so damn happy...i got the chance to know him...and to be his friend...yeayyy...lamer aku tunggu saat2 ih...

being his friend is great!he is a good friend...last time...he's the one whom i can share my story with...ermmm..banyak laa gak aku share ngan dia...dier dak jaybee...tuh yang banyak mende kitorang share... n we are a lot in common...tuh yang best tuh...biler aku down...dier gak yang calm kan aku...bler dier down...aku calm kan dier lak... best2...wish that time comes again...

ermmm...during last convocation...i got to meet him...face to face...
for the first time...bapak gembiranyer aku...dier cam terkejut aa nampak aku...n aku tak prepare pape pun nak bagi dier...sian dier... em so sorry shahidh...lama gilerrr tak jumpa dier!!!n i do miss him a lot!aku cam nak menitis air mata terharu maser tuh...but then...aku
ader kengkawan lak...kang malu jer nangis...org gembira2...aku nangis...aper kes...n he seemed so happy...

aku apa lagik...maner leh lepaskan peluang...mintak amik gambar aaa...best2...bler diri sebelah dier...cam diri sebelah bapak aku... tinggi giler...n body mantap abis...ahhhhhhh...dream guy aku tuh... protective abis...ahhhhhh...memang sangat laa best...rapat sungguh d ctu...aku rasa...kalau salam memang best laaa...tapi...tak dapat... eishhh...biler tgk gambar balik...aku tertutup mata la plak...sial jer aku ih...rosak tul gambar...tapi...dier senyum penuh!!!!sangat comel...sib baik dier pun nak gak gambar tuh dalam kamera dier... best tak??

n after that...aku try msg dier...slalu dier tak balas...skalik dier balas...dier kater dier jarang giler top up...n dier bukan tak nak balas...b4 this...dier ader prob...dier tak luper aku pun sebenarnyer...yeayyyyy...skang nih...he further his study in queensland,australia...amik master in commerce...bestnyer...tapi... makin jauh...n makin tipis harapan aku...tapikan...kalau jodoh tak ke mana...yer tak?

ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!ibu!!!!intan nak kawin!!!!arhhhhhhh...alah emak... kawinkan aku....

25~~

2005-08-23T10:11:00.000-07:00

yeayy...at last the time comes...25 hb!!!!birthday mawi!!!
HAPPY BIRTH DAY TO YOU...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MAWI...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...
really2 hope that mawi will success...n hope that he'll be strong to manage his life...go mawi go...haha

PUPUS

2005-08-16T15:25:00.000-07:00

haaa...mawi ader nyanyi lagu ih gak arituh...maser 8th concert...best2...lirik dier pun best... ternyata...MAWI ngan aku sama...dua2 bertepuk sebelah tangan....arghhhhh...aku nak nyanyi aaa lagu ih...utk MAWI....hahahahaha...

of course laa aku bertepuk sebelah tangan...dah MAWI tuh dah bertunang...arghhhh...luper lak aku nak story....aku bg baller id kat aznil ngan MAWI maser imbasan...sanggup tuh tunggu until 5 am...semata2 nak bg MAWI hadiah...yess!!!mawi ngan aznil trus pakai.,.yeahhh... LIVESTRONG!!!!!

aku pedulik hape...bley bli lain...heheheh...anyway...aku jatuh hati ngan MAWI!!

MAWIKU MENANG!!

2005-08-16T15:02:00.000-07:00

yeah...lambat lak aku update mende2 ih...yeahhhh...that final concert!on the 6th of august that day...my cousin and i managd to get free tickets to watch the concert!!!yipppeee!!!on that day...i planned to ask my parents to go to the stadium...just to buy mawi's merchandise...but..on our way to visit a cousin of mine in atma...i got a call from another cousin...telling that she just received a call from my uncle...saying that there were 2 free tickets...apa lagik...rezeki...peluang keemasan... aku pun setuju...i was damn excited...

after visiting my cousin in atma...my parents straight away sent me to my aunt's house...then at around 5.30...we shoot off to my uncle's office in glenmarie...then he sent us to the stadium.... perghhhhh...jam giler babi nyer...then...my cousin asked her father(my uncle td) to send us to giant to buy the film...arghhhhh...time2 ih laaa digi cam dier rosak...siollll...berlari kitorang carik kedai...sib baik dapat....

huh...sampai kat stadium...the people around memang ramai...rata2 ramai peminat mawi,... yeah...mawi cam bley menang ih....hehehhee...memang best!!!sampai kat depan pintu masuk kul 6.30...pintu bukak kul 7 aa janjinyer...skalik bukak kul 7.15...siott....sib baik cuti...hahahaha..
pastuh...bler nak start tuh...punya laa lama...tak sabar aku nak tunggu....ahhhhh....aku sampai kuar anak tekak jerit mawi...tp malamtuh memang malam mawi!!!satu stadium sokong mawi...
banner mawi besar2 dowh...

hahahhahaa...best2....mawi takluper lirik!!!!marsha ngan felix yang luper!!best2!!!biar terdiam pengutuk dier....yeah...mawi deserves to be the champ!!!n maser aznil nak announce tuh... punya laa gabra...as mawi dah sapu dua2 anugerah sampingan tuh...which were the anugerah vokal ngan anugerah persembahan....ish....serun dowh...kazen aku ngan kawan2 aku(kwn baru.. jumpa kat sana) duk jerit2 takut....skali...bler aznil ckp...sambil angkat tangan felix...yang felix tuh jadik naib juara....aku bersorak riang...tp...bergenang dowh air mata...terharu giler...sama2 nangis ngan mawi!!akhirnyer!!!susah giler mawi nak menang...byk sangat kutukan dier....ish2... tak rugi aku abiskan sket cdt aku utk dier...mmg berbaloi...yeahhh!!!mawi sapu bersih sumer anugerah....

yeahhhh...aku akan trus sokong MAWI sampai bler2...yeah...nak paste gambar takleh lak... siotttt

LOST

2005-07-26T09:06:00.000-07:00

ermmmm...yes...yes...yes...last2 aku dapat gak 'barang panas' tuh...yeahhhh...aku sgt gembira...cuma aku tak bgtau sesaper aaa...aku
membeli barang tuh...mati wey...giler!kalau parents aku tau...masak aku...tak caya diorang...aku beli mende2 macam tuh...naya2...

aku amik from dealer dier kat klcc that day...
punya aa cam sorok2...takut beb...uishh...bkn senang wat keje ih..dier siap amik cuti tuh...
jual 'barang panas' tuh...uiyooo...mmg untung aaa bisnes2 camnih...cuma kena pandai carik pelanggan...aku siap bli 2 lagik...same type..
but different laa..hoho..dah rasa baru tau aaa
lainnyer aper...

serius wey...aku terasa mcm ader kat dunia sendrik...bler dapat 'barang' tuh....ahhh...
aku siap sorok2 lagik kat umah...takut mak aku jumpa...sampai kat utp ih aku lega sket...
kwn2 pun tak pasan...sib baik...cover baik nyer...but then...satu hari aku akan reveal gak...tak tahan beb...

ahhhh...leave that thing laa...ari kamis arituh...aku terasa lost giler...nih sumer gara2 astro....uishhh...seksa wey...kalau tak tgk sehari...mlm b4 that...umah kena ribut... siap bocor lagik bilik aku tuh...siot nyer heng(contractor yang renovate umah aku)...siot tul...wat truk2...nak bayaran mahal..aper kes...

ermmm...kamis tuh plak...pg2 lagik aku dah on tv...as usual laa kan...then...tgh sodap2 tgk muvi...tetiba...kuar ayat yang paling aku benci...
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SIALLLL!!!!aku cool lagik...bese aa tuh kekadang...smart card tak masuk betul...aku pun ngan yo2 O nyer kuarkan...then masukkan balik...siap puh2 plus baca bismillah lagik...tapi...mengapa bu...tak leh gak...aku trus sms baba...then baba said...dier ader silap byr...byr ke akaun ibu...n org astro nak transfer kan...so maybe dier tutup jap...aku dah cemas plus frust nak mati...baba suh aku call astro...ngan semangatnyer aku call...guna hp lak tuh...sib baik ader cdt lai...

siottt...aku xplain laa kat dier...tanya apsal astro terenti...dier mintak lak no akaun...damn!aku tak tau lak no akaun baba...no akaun ibu aku hafal laaa...ish... aku sms baba balik...then call astro balik...aku xplain lai...bg no akaun sumer... then dier ckp aaa baki perlu bayar...rm189.30...utk 2 months...perghhh...mahal rupernyer astro ih...but then...aku bgtau aa dier yang baba salah akaun sumer...then dier ckp...kalau nak transfer akaun boleh...amik maser 1-2 MINGGU!!!!!!ayam! tungkik!
lemah lutut aku wey...serius...aku tetiba timbul idea...sib baik laju jer otak aku pk...anything for MAWI...aku sanggup...aku tanya dier...kalau bapak aku byr kat akaun dier ih...then yang transfer to carry forward 4 next 2 months...astro akan trus on ker tak...then dengan poyo nyer...dier kata...YA!TRUS ON!

aku pun aper lai...kembali bersemangat...mintak baba bayar...then baba agreed...as the whole family don wanna miss AF...especially MAWI...tapi...yang paling kronik aku aaa...then...baba bayar kul 12...n aku dah miss diari tgh hari tuh..which is HELL! then...aku trus try bukak kul 12.30...still tak on????!!!aku berapi!siap maki hamun astro sumer...janji cam sial...ckp trus on...tapi...habuk pun tarak...tunggu punya tunggu...sampai la ker malam...bapak aku siap call lagik astro...as risau tgk aku cam org tak betul...duk diam jer...tak banyak cakap...makan pun tak...then tgh aku tolong adik aku wat keje skolah...tetiba mata aku bergenang...aku cam pasrah tahap dewa nyer...n malam tuh aku tdo ngan kesedihan..bertemankan lagu2 nyanyian MAWI... yang ader dlm hp aku...sedih siot...

the next morning...aku trus try...lepas parents aku sumer pi keje...huh... ALHAMDULILLAH...bleh on...itu laa kenangan paling pahit aku ngan AF3 ih...n aku tak nak mende ih happen lagik...ish2

20 THINGS I LIKE ABOUT MAWI

2005-07-18T23:13:00.000-07:00

yeah...my MAWI will sing pupus...by dewa...for this week's concert...huh...yeahhh...luv u laa MAWI...hope he can sing this song...i heard that he seems not knowing this song at all...aiyak... tp...bak kater dier...belasah jer...hehehehe...can't wait to watch this week's concert...

comel tak my MAWI?comel kan...20 things why aku giler2kan MAWI...

1)HENSEM

2)PANDAI NGAJI

3)ALIM

4)SOPAN

5)BAIK BUDI PEKERTI

6)TAK HIPOKRIT

7)SELAMBER

8)KELAKAR

9)BOTAK

10)KIDAL

11)SENYUM CUTE

12)TAK CONTROL

13)MACHO

14)ANAK YG BAIK

15)SOLEH

16)SUKA KETAWA

17)PERAMAH

18)HAPPY GO LUCKY

19)PENYAYANG

20)WORLD!!!!!

uishhh...mcm nak kena wat 100 things i like about MAWI...or maybe...1000 things?n aku tatau aura aper...yang sampai wat aku jadik giler...huhu...

SOMETHING WONDERFUL

2005-07-18T16:49:00.000-07:00

ermm...nowadays...i always update about MAWI...n i do think people might get fed up with my story...so...now...wanna tell some stories...what happened..n nak citer2 sket la kan...huhu...but then...actually...my holidays were filled with akademi fantasia...24-7 watching af...12 noon...sat in front of the tv...watched diari...at night...8.30 p.m...watched another diari...n at 11.30 till 12.30 a.m...watched repeated ones...everyday was like that...so how?

huhu...ibu n baba too get bored...when i kept on singing MAWI's song almost all the time...tgh sidai kain lagu MAWI...tgh kemas..lagu MAWI..bler laa..sumer MAWI...ish2...dah2...tgk...nak update pasal mende len..terckp pasal MAWI...huhu...aper penangan tah...aku pun kompius... ermmm...

boring...boring...boring...it seems to rain this evening...yup!mmg dah ujan pun...huhu...just finished watching other stories in tv...seems that i just spent my time with af during holidays...byk gak citer aku miss...huhu...tak kisah pun...gua takde hal beb...uiyooo...ujan lebat lak...kat umah...ujan 4 kali jer...aiyakkk...lain2 maser...panas terik...dah muka aku pun naik legam...ish2...camner nak menten ih...aiseh...tapi skang tgh dlm proses pemulihan kulit...eje...

ermmmm...what to write huh...takde idea aa nak tulis...kalau pasal mende2 len...kalau pasal MAWI...sumer jalan...idea dtg mencurah2...huhu...ujan panas ih...heheheheh...since my topic is something wonderful...i remembered one thing happened in my life during the holidays...it was when...i got the opportunity to meet this person...yang dah lamer aku tak jumpa...yeah...aku merinduimu...ting tong...serious lamer giler...about 5 years kot...n all the memories datang balik..maser kitorang borak2...ahhhhhh...best2...even that day...suria was packed with people... yang tatau dari maner dtgnyer...but then...it was a great moment...spending time together2... cam lepas rindu lak kitorang maser tuh...leh wat keje giler lagik...n i don't care laa kan...what people around us might say that time...but we did enjoy our time...yeahhhh...siap men kejar2 lagik kat tmn saner...cam citer hindustan la kawan...aiseh...bese aaa...dah cam adik badik... cenggitulah jadiknyer...hahahahahhhaa...best2

herrmmmm...miss u already...thanx for spending ur time with me that day...to whom it may concern...u know who u are...n thanx a lot coz still remember me as ur friend...friends forever... ermmm...still loving u...ho yeah...skali dgr cam lain macam lak...but it's not wrong to love ur friend,right?maser kat skolah ok jer...aper salahnyer...sesama pompuan...no big deal laaa...huhu
that was the wonderful moment...ho yeah...bestnyerrr...len kali leh wat lagik...yer tak...

OH FATIMAH

2005-07-18T14:39:00.000-07:00

6TH CONCERT

oh fatimah...yeah...he can dance...hooray...but then...who cares about dancing...his voice is superb!professional singer pun takde sore cam MAWI...serius...susah nak carik pengganti jamal...mnasir...sumer...bangga aku....anak jati JOHOR...sore sedap gilerrr!!!hahahahah... everyday MAWI...huhu...update blog pun pasal MAWI manjang...yeah...pengganti anuar zain aku...dah ku temui...ho yeah...WORLD!

MAGICAL WORLD OF MAWI

2005-07-15T10:50:00.000-07:00

mawi memang best!aku dah kronik ih...

SENYUMAN RAGAMU

2005-07-15T10:25:00.000-07:00

senyuman yang menemani aku siang malam...bayangkan...dah tgk diari siang...leh tgk lai ulangan...konsert lak...tah baper banyak kali aku layan...chat @ 15 pun aku layan...parah2...

AFUNDI MAWI n SEND TO 32999

2005-07-15T10:06:00.000-07:00

yeah...everyday...at least once...i'll send the sms written..."AFUNDI MAWI" and send it to 32999...yeah...makan MAWI...tdo MAWI...wat keje MAWI...masak MAWI...duduk MAWI...tgk tv of course laaa MAWI...MAWI rulez...MAWI world..yeah...MAWI ku hensem...kacak bergaya...org jowo yang best...org johor yang gempak...

chief MAWI...ai2 sir...who cares...whether he is enganged or not...sedangkan kapal terbang leh di hijacked...apertah lagik org...baru tunang...who cares...right now...caller ringtones sore MAWI... ringtones MAWI nyanyi...msg pun...sore MAWI nyanyi...ahhhh...aku memang dah giler ngan MAWI...susah senang bersama...

KOLEJ MARA SEREMBAN

2005-07-15T09:24:00.000-07:00

haha...updating this stuff is my hobby...that's why aku sanggup ke cc everyday nowadays...huh... damn!telekom yang sengal..line tepon tarak...supposedly laa kan...kawasan umah baru...cepat2 aaa masuk kan line...huh...damn!agak keciwa di ctu....

ermmm...wanna story more about my holidays...yup..actually..so many things i've been doing throughout this hols...yeahh...besides bz with my MAWI..hehehe...aku pi antar fifi masuk kolej mara seremban that day...yeah...see...ader jodoh ngan seremban di ctu..hahahaahhaa...yeah right...erm...the college is near to kgv...which is great...n near to seremban parade...beri nice... senang fifi nak shopping...memang best...

bertolak kul 6.30 from house...than reach seremban around 7 something...which is beri fast la kan...dekat rupernyer...senang aa aku nak ulang alik...hahahahahah...then..went to the pendaftaran session...ramai giler org...n most of the parents...tampak sombong...tuh aa dier... kalau sesama melayu...huh...damn!hell!ader laaa one atuk ih...antar cucu dier...tgh dgr taklimat...baba terlanggar kerusi...siap dier tarik kerusi n wat muka...sial jer...

ahhhh..during the briefing...memang boring!ngantukz!last2 aku jadik kamera woman tak bertauliah kat situ...bosan ler katerkan...then...dah penat amik2 video n gambar sumer...aku join dgr taklimat..sampai tersengguk dowh...maner taknyer...pasal dak2 fly ih...aku dgr aaa sket2... ader tuh...yang amik medic ker arab saudi...kat al-azhar...kena hafal 3 juzuk...perghhh... kalah MAWI aku ih kot...huhu...trus aku terbayang pakwe aku tuh...hahahahaha...bagus2...ader plak q&a session after tuh...byk lak soklan...ader yang berlagak pun ader,..siap statekan dier dr al-azhar...harus ker?

huh...penat dgr ceramah...aku sempat melilau2 mater...jamu mate...kot2 laa ader abg2 dak2 ih yang hensem...leh aku usha..ermm...malangnyer...tarak...cuma adik2 aku nyer batch tuh yang hensem2...aiseh...adik maa...beza 4 tahun lak tuh...ish2..pas tuh ikut aaa senior adik aku...kira dier nyer abg aaa...firdaus namernye...skali anak aunty gayah lak...kwn ibu...hahahaha...muda dari aku rupernyer...cet!hensem lak tuh...first2 aku dah tertancap...ceh...

ermmm..masuk asrama fifi lak...dier seroom ngan dak kedah n KELANTAN???abih aaa..dah aa si fifi tuh anti set2 sana...tp hensem aa mamat tuh...tapi 100000000000 kali hensem lagik MAWI aku...ahahhahaha...huh...after dak kemas2...pi makan sumer...kat seremban parade... balik...but...leh sesat sejam tuh kat seremban...carik2 jalan nak kuar ke highway...ish2...so how raph?hahahaha..

but now...adik aku cam pening lak kat sana...maner taknyer...dier x suka math...sbb tuh amik tesl...skali...math ader...takper lai...silibus samer ngan dak2 medic n eng...aper kes?so skang ih tgh try rayu balik kat bpg...tapi...dah kena sembur pun arituh...coz dah tolak...pastuh nak amik balik...cet!yer pun cakap aaa bebaik...ish2...terpakso pi jumpa kwn baba...tuh pun... kementerian len...ceh...benci aku kat si hamdan tuh..kecoh aaa...yer pun...ckp aaa bebaik...sian ibu...aku tgk cam nak menitis air mata...treat org cam sial...

ermmm...haaa...pasal roomate adik aku yang klate nuh tuh..adik aku citer kat aku...maser dier balik last week...ader ker dier tanya adik aku...cenggini...(aku pun nak termuntah dgr)

"wey nash...kakakmu wardina ek..."

"maner der..."adik aku jawab ngan nada terkejut nak mampos...hahahahaha...siot adik aku ih... siap citer kat aku gelak2 lagik...n aku tergelak besar...

"cantik nuh...kakak2 mu..."sindir ker aper...siottt..wardina mende...makcik wardina pun lum tentu...tapi...pape pun...amin...

hahahaha...penat lak aku citer pasal adik aku ih...citer len lak aaa...

MAWI WORLD!!!

2005-07-12T11:30:00.000-07:00

haaa...aku memang hantu akademi fantasia...dr first season...zaman2 af1...vince...khai....adi sumer.. pastuh zaman af2... zahid...farah...adam..mas sumer...sampai laa af3..MAWI(WORLD)...kefli(prappp!!)... felix(susah2 aja..uwekkk...tru mawi..)..yazer(rock steady)...aidil(mat belia)...reza(huh...takleh harap langsung!)...fuad(zahid-wanna-be)...elliza(comel)...amy (lawa giler)...akma(tak aci..dah masuk byk pertandingan...)..idayu(sore sedap giler...).. ekin (ngada2...gedik nak mampos!)...marsha(lawa jer lebih...tapi worst!)...amylea(lagi aa nyampah! hipokri!miskin mende!alicia keys wanna be yang tak jadik langsung!sucks!)...

erm..musim ih...astro wat len sket...calon sumer ader 20...tapi pilih 12...tuh yang ader konsert prelude tuh...huhu...student yang lagik 6 tuh...isa(lembut dowh...kwn bob af2)...azliff(lawak aa cara n gaya dier nyanyi lagu perpisahan yang kau pinta...aku slalu tru gaya dier...)... haider (sian dier...patut dier masuk rather than reza...giler best nyanyi lagu mungkin nanti...kalah si reza tuh..faliq kalah gak...)...diana(best gak sore)...shiha(cam adik sheryl siot...muka sebijut)... rina (mak org pun nak masuk...tah pape)...hehehe... aku nak citer in detail pasal pakwe aku ih...iaitu...

MAWI

Nama Penuh : Asmawi bin Ani
Tarikh Lahir : 25 Ogos 1981
Zodiak : Virgo
Tinggi/Berat : 173cm/56kg
Bangsa : Melayu
Agama : Islam
Hobi : Bermain sepak takraw
Makanan/Minuman kegemaran : Nasi Goreng Kampung/Teh O'
Penyanyi Kegemaran : Yassin, Nash, Wahida
Pelakon Kegemaran : M.Rajoli, Jalaluddin Hassan, Ida Nerina, Umie Aida
Lagu Kegemaran : Seruan
Ringkasan diri : Jenis muzik yang banyak mempengaruhi Mawi ialah muzik Nasyid. Lagu yang kerap dinyanyikan oleh Mawi ialah lagu Intifada. Jika diberi peluang Mawi ingin menyanyi berduet dengan Wahida. Bila ditanya siapakah penyanyi yang ingin ditemuinya pula ialah Yassin, Wahida, Nash dan Ramli Sarip. Mawi teringin untuk makan malam bersama Siti Nurhaliza.(perlu ker siti?baik aku...)

SESI BERTEMU PRESS

haaa...nih first time MAWI muncul kat depan sumer...maser jumpa ngan press sumer..yeahh.. maser nih dah tunjuk karisma...hoho..that's my MAWI...

KONSERT PRELUDE

konsert prelude...di mana...pakwe aku ih...nyanyi lagu intifada...rabbani...since then...dier ih kumpul giler ramai fan...termasuk laaa aku...uishhh...sore dier...jantan tulen...org byk mengaji... sore sedap dowh...idup JOHORIAN!!!memang best...tp...from this concert...dier tak dapat masuk senarai 12 finalis tuh...cet!kuang asam nyer kudsia n mnasir n the rest of the juries... siolll jer...sebab nyanyi lagu nasyid...salah ke?reza tuh dapat jer...lagu nasyid gak...pekak agaknyer diorang ih..

FIRST CONCERT-DISERAP SEMULA

hoho...maser ih...tak sangka dowh...MAWI akan masuk balik...jdkan sumer student...14 org... best2...tak ksiah aa si marsha gedik tuh masuk gak...yang penting...MAWI dapat masuk... ramai fan beb...termasuk aaa aku...dier nyanyi lagu kekasih awal dan akhir...mmg mantap...even luper lirik...who cares...asalkan vokal cun...

SECOND CONCERT(1ST CONCERT MAWI)MAWI nyanyi lagu dari kekasih utk kekasih...best2...dulik aper aku ngan luper lirik lagi... melodi lari sket2...ala...maner taknyer...original minus one lain drpd maser kat akademi...tuh yang salah tuh...tp..MAWI tetap WORLD!

SESI KHAS NGAN PENGETUA

ho yeah...sesi nih MAWI jer dapat...coz dier laaa harapan m nasir...skali..dier luper lirik n melodi...tgk..tunduk jer MAWI...tak bantah pun...akui kesilapan...takde aaa bangkang2...cikgu adnan pun ngaku dier silap...after MAWI wat silap ih...uish...galak aaa pengutuk2 dier pasal kes ih...even sampai skang...tah pape...

2ND CONCERT MAWI

siapa bilang gadis melayu tak menawan...tak menarik hati tiada memikat...ewah...best2...kan dah aku terpaste banyak kali....
yang nih lagik...
dan lagik....
baper banyak daa...utk concert ih...haaa...maser ih aaa MAWI kater nak carik gadis melayu yang bertudung...sporting...paham dier...n...pandai urut...cam ader jer ciri2 tuh kat aku... yeah...

3RD CONCERTHabibi, ya nour el ain,

Ya saakin khayali.

.Aashek bakali sneen,

Wala ghayraak fibali.

Habibi, ya nour el ain

Ya saakin khayali.

Aashek bakali sneen,

Wala ghayraak fibali.

Habibi, ya nour el ain,

Ya saakin khayali.

Aashek bakali sneen,

Wala ghayraak fibali.

Habibi, ya nour el ain,

Ya saakin khayali.

Aashek bakali sneen,

Wala ghayraak fibali.

Habibi, habibi, habibi,

Ya nour el ain.

Habibi, habibi, habibi,

Ya nour el ain.

Habibi, habibi, habibi,

Ya nour el ain.

Habibi, habibi, habibi,

Ya nour el ain.

Ya saakin khayali.

Agmaal eyoun fil koon,

Ana shoftaha.

Allah aleik allah,

Alla sihraha.

Agmaal eyoun fil koon,

Ana shoftaha.

Allah aleik allah,

Alla sihraha.

Eyounaak ma-ayaa,

Eyounaak kifayaa.

Eyounaak ma-ayaa,

Eyounaak kifayaa.

Tinawar layali.

Habibi, habibi, habibi,

Ya nour el ain.

Habibi, habibi, habibi,

Ya nour el ain.

Habibi, habibi, habibi,

Ya nour el ain.

Habibi, habibi, habibi,

Ya nour el ain.

Ya saakin khayali.

Habibi, ya nour el ain,Ya saakin khayali.

Aashek bakali sneen,

Wala ghayraak fibali.

Albaak nadally wa kaal,Bet-hebenee.

Allah aleik allah,Tamenteni.

Albaak nadally wa kaal,Bet-hebenee.

Allah aleik allah,Tamenteni.

Ma-aak el bidaya,Wa koul el hekaya.

Ma-aak lil nahaya.

Habibi, habibi, habibi,Ya nour el ain.

Habibi, habibi, habibi,Ya nour el ain.Habibi, habibi, habibi,Ya nour el ain.

Habibi, habibi, habibi,Ya nour el ain.

Habibi, habibi.

Habibi, habibi, habibi,Ya nour el ain.

Habibi, habibi.Habibi, habibi...

yeah...love this song lately...thanx to raph...for this lyrics...aku opy paste jer...edit2 sket..huhu..

4TH CONCERT

beautiful maria...saper kater MAWI takleh nyanyi english song...dier dah buktikan...yeah... MAWI memang WORLD!susah siott...sian dier...2 minggu bertutut2 dapat lagu mencabar...

5TH CONCERT

haaa...last week was something...nope!was everything...MAWI dah tunjuk kehebatan dier.. yeah...dier nyanyi lagu memori cinta luka...by nassier wahab...even nassier wahab takleh bwk lagu nih life...haaa...best2...sampai nampak urat kepala beb...sedap giler...even selsema n sakit tekak pun sore sedap...ish2...memang WORLD!berbakat abiss....

this week...dier nyanyi lagu oh fatimah...sure gempak...tungguuuu....

n...I'M MAWI'S NO.1 FAN!!!!memang demam aku ih...ikutkan aku nak balik minggu depan... ak tgk 7th concert dier....ish...gonna miss my DIARI everyday...sob2...next week kena gak balik... tak best aaa tgk kat utp...tah2 takde org layan...aku dulik aper...dah super senior...tv tuh aku yang punya...ske aku aaa...aku takleh miss my beloved MAWI!

WORLD!

WELCOME BACK

2005-07-12T08:30:00.000-07:00

hahahaha...it has been quite a month since i last update this blog...hahahaha...bese laa kan...b42 this slalu update...erm....where should i start?yerp...from the first day i reached home...home sweet home...

yeah...reached home that day on the 4th of june...haaa...more than a month already maa...aiya... n so many things happened during my holidays...it's not that i don't wanna update...internet tarak maa...lum masuk lagik...so..that day...went back to my new house...new life...new surroundings...yeah...my family had shifted to putra heights...not far away from subang jaya...n my address still stated subang jaya on it....ahhhh...luckily...takde aaa...kat shah alam ker... puchong ker...which is even worst...(no offense ek to those yang tinggal kat shah alam or puchong)...ermmm...looking at the boxes...full of things unpacked...made me feel tired..or even exhausted...but then...when i thought them back...i felt pity to my parents...no one had helped them packing the things...we moved on the 2nd actually...so after 2 days...i came back....

ermm...on the first week...i had to finish packing and cleaning my old house in ss 14...ahhh.... very tiring...from 9 am till 6 pm...i cleaned the house all by myself...with one wet towel covering my face...i swept the floor...cleaned the kitchen...rooms...nih kira last touch up laa...fuhhhh... penat siot!!!n the next morning...i got flu...seminggu flu...bapak aaa...habuk giler tebal...maner tak wey...10 years renting that house...uishhh...giler aaa...

n kat umah baru lak...i had to help unpaced the things...tuh pun sampai skang still tak abis2 lagik...ader one room lagik full of things...haaa...but then...it is just the guest's room...luckily laa... our rooms settled....

that was the cleaning part...n it took about 3 weeks to clear them...tuh pun tak abis lagik...n my routine at home...woke up at 6.45 everyday...lock the house after my parents shoot off to work... then...tdo sat...or maybe layan movie2 yang 'best' kat hbo or starmovies or cinemax...ader ker pg2 yang best?hahahaha...best bg aku ader aaa...tuh pun kekadang...bapak down...jahat giler aku...but then...had to lower down the volume...takut adik2 aku yang tgh cuti tuh bgn...al maklumlaa...illegal tgk...hahahahahahhaha...alaa...bkn over pun...n sometimes...had to switch to ch 60/61...takut kantoi...paling2 pun tv3 aaa...tgk mhi...hahahahhaa...jahat dowh...bler aku nak tobat ih...

then...around .830 ker...9 ker...siram rumput...sambil pakai topi petani...kuang3...skali tgk cam indon betulkan umah sebelah daa...ish2...tapi aku pedulik aper...panas dowh...it was too hot...n guess what...since we moved there...it rains only 4 times...huh...duk atas angin laa katerkan... muahahahaha...ermmm....while watering the grass...nyanyi2 la kan...lagu2 yang MAWI aku dok nyanyi...(demam2...mmg aku giler kat MAWI skang)...quite boring laa duk siram rumput... about an hour watering the grass everyday...can u imagine?

after watering2...hang the clothes...wahhhh...cam surirumah berjaya aka bergaya aku ih.... hahahahah....gadis melayu...kuakuakua...start new washing...ish2...then...sweep the floor... upstairs n downstairs...after 10 years living in a single storey house...bler pindah ker double... penat dowh...naik patah pinggang aku...then mop downstairs...vacuum all the rooms..(after dah sapu la kan)...then mop again...uiyoo....coz my target...i have to finish all the work by 11.45...
after all the cleaning stuff...

COOKING!!yeah...queen of cook aku skang...ckp jer masak per...expert dah...not only weekdays...weekends pun aku kena masak...almaklum laa...my parents dah percaya aku leh masak...cayalah bu...yeahhh...cuma baba jer yang ader komplen2...bese aaa...org laki...ader jer tak puas...bukan per tuh...baba ske air tangan ibu jer...it's ok...

haaa...after masak...kemas dapur...uiyoo...then...MANDI!!!!pas mandi...switch on tv...bukak ch4.. PASTI BERJAYA...di AKADEMI FANTASIA...yeah...this one aku nak elaborate pjg sket...tp satu bhgn khas aa kan...

SAYONARA UTP...SEE YA NEXT SEM

2005-06-04T07:28:00.000-07:00

it was a very fast...the time passed by fast...serious...suddenly...this semester has come to its end...sedar tak sedar...next sem...is my final sem...insya Allah...feel like to cry...coz it's quite sad...to leave UTP...coz many things i've learnt in uUTP...not only learn about my field...but also all about life!erkkk...sedih laaa...nak balik dah nih~~sayonara~~~see ya next semester~~~ happy holidays to all utpians especially to my geng...hasfa...nor...nina...husna...waida...khuzai... shon...tpah...yus...fer...terk...to other friends...butet...tepet...sir lupi...yati...azwa...mimi...farah... adie...shasha...shar...n yang len2 yang aku tak tersebut nama...nih yang terlintas kat pkran aku jer ih....to mawar n namo...selamat grad...sorry for everything...all the best in ur future life... stay friends forever...remember me always...do keep in touch...nice knowing u both...n last but not least...i luv u both...n i'm gonna be missing both of u...muahhhhhhhhhh

HAPPY HOLIDAYS @>-->---

I'M MISSING SOMETHING REAL

2005-06-04T04:35:00.000-07:00

kind of missing someone right now...damn!seriously...i've been thinking of this for a few days...why am i missing this someone...arhghhhhhh!!!miss him laaa...seriously!!really wanted to meet him~~arghhhhhh!!!life became more dull without him...totally dull...no mood..arghhhhhh!!!
i've been missing someone damn much...ish2...

2day...went to send my friends to Lost World of Tambun...a new water theme park...similar to sunway lagoon...they wanted to go there...but i didn't join them...as i don't want to hear mum's scolding...if i got burnt...ibu will be angry...huhu...n i don't want that...so i decided to go back to utp...thought of packing...but then...i was DAMN SLEEPY...until i accidentally knock on the devider...luckily there was nothing...just the tyre which got knocked...

went to sleep until 3...then wake up..straight away to jj...got my own plan...karokz!!yeah..layan 15 lagu...sengsorang...sakit tekak gak aaa...huhu...yerp!life was boring...actually..thought if i could spend time together with him there...skali impian berkecai...x kesampaian...sedih2... huhu....

FULL STOP

2005-06-03T03:44:00.000-07:00

ahhhhh...what a relief...my fyp completed...yeahhh..what left will be just the fydp...huhu...from a big project to even a bigger one...hahahhaha...but used to it already...final year already...gonna be final sem lagik next sem...insya Allah...ermmm...the presentation this morning was superb!the external examiner was very cool...same like dr kamarul also laa...kater schoolmate...hahaha.. same name some more...huhu...

can't go to sleep right now...as usual laa...last2 day...just wanna spend some time in utp...before going back...huhu...like last time also...it's always happen...huhe....yeahhhh...but can't wait to go back too...so how?

welll...i just put a full stop to it...yeah...there's no reason for me to go on...luckily...next sem i'll be in utp still...huhu...it's not that bad laa kalau camtuh...yup!everytime wanna proceed...i tried to focus on my desktop...to the wallpaper...try to figure out...how can i turn to others?nahhh... mengarut gilerr...so just leave it!tell urself to be focused...set ur mind...

suddenly dah weng...have to go to sleep...arghhhhhhhh...ngantuk bangat!

WHEN U BELIEVE

2005-06-02T09:40:00.000-07:00

Many nights we pray
With no proof anyone could hear
And our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understand
Now we are not afraid

Although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains long
Before we know we could
Oah yes

There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who know what miracle
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

In this time of fear
When prayer so often proves in vain
Hope seems like the summer birds
Too swiftly flown away

And now I am standing here
My heart's so full
I can't explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought

I'd say
There can be miracles
When you believe

When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill Who know what miraclea
You can achieve
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

They don't always happen when you ask
And it's easy to give in to your fear
Ohhhhh
But when you're blinded by your pain
Can't see you way safe through the rain
Thought of a still resilient voice
Says love is very near
There can be miracles

Miracles
When you believe
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who know what miracles
You can achieve
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will

Somehow somehow somehow
You will when you believe
You will when you believe
You will when you believe
You will when you believe
Just believe
YOU WILL WHEN YOU BELIEVE

EXTERNALKU~~

2005-06-02T09:32:00.000-07:00

huhu...my external came late..and had to delay the presentation time to 10 o'clock...huh...giler lag....geram gak aaa...abis lambat...siottt....wish me luck!

PETRONAS PENAPISAN TERENGGANU

2005-06-01T10:30:00.000-07:00

erk...just hearing this name...i tend to become nervous...why is that so?yup!tomorrow will be my oral presentation...for the fyrp...erkk..cuak2...this morning...when i woke up...planned to see mr nasser...as he will be representing dr kamarul...arghhhh...this was a shocked to know that dr kamarul will not be here tomorrow...ish2...and met with my friends...and they seemed to tell stories about PPT...n the stories made me feel more nervous...ish2...the stories were like...ppl in PPT are all strict...they love to ask killer questions...love giving psycho comments...erk...not enough with all that stories...went to see mr nasser...told him about the examiner...than he too said that the person will give low marks if he doesn't understand the presentation...eisshhhhh...
this is horrible!

arghhhhhhhhh....wish that it will be ok tomorrow...pray for me...please give me some support... anyone?any advice or something...hope that mr nasser will backup....arghhhhhhh...PPT...PPT....

LOVE STORY IN HARVARD(CONT)

2005-05-31T11:50:00.000-07:00

hahaha...the story continues...hehehe...that day was about the story...sweet 18,right?tired of thinking about the sentences to describe the story...i guess...i just get the sypnopsis from internet and paste it here...hahahhahaa...easier...

hermmm....sweet 18....
The drama begins with Hyuk Joon’s grandfather, the patriarch of the respectable and very traditional Kwon household, agreeing to a pre-arranged marriage between his at-the-time 10 year old grandson and the new-born granddaughter of his best friend, Jung Sook’s grandfather. However, the family of Jung Sook’s grandfather soon runs into debt and in the middle of the night, they quietly leave the Kwon household so as not to bring shame upon them.

Fast forward 17 years and Jung Sook is all grown up now and studying her final year in high school in preparation for her university-entrance exams. Her grandfather and father have by now passed on and she was brought up in a poor environment by her mum who owns a small laundry shop. However, Jung Sook is chirpy and strong-willed despite her background and definitely very cheeky. She unfortunately does not have much of an interest in her studies and often goes shopping and to discos with her ‘gang’ of four close friends, known in school collectively as the ‘five mirror princesses’.

It is during one of these disco outings that Jung Sook ends up meeting her future husband, Hyuk Joon, although it is not in the best of circumstances. Hyuk Joon, a prosecutor has led his team to the disco to arrest a targeted gang leader but failing to do so, end up arresting underage entrants to the disco instead. Jung Sook, not yet 18, is one of those arrested and the awkward circumstance of their meeting is used to generate a few laughs. At almost the same time, Hyuk Joon’s grandfather who has been looking for his long-lost friend over the years, finally locates Jung Sook’s family’s whereabouts and send Hyuk Joon’s uncle to formalise the details of the pre-arranged marriage with Jung Sook’s mum.

Upon learning of the marriage, Hyuk Joon and Jung Sook of course are very much opposed to it with Hyuk Joon thinking of Jung Sook as an immature brat while Jung Sook sees Hyuk Joon as an old boring nerd. However, the usual plot developments are thrown in to bring the two together like Jung Sook catching Hyuk Joon in the bath when going to his house to ask him something and more importantly, she learns that Hyuk Joon is her first love (the unknown guy in traditional Korean dress whom she bumped into on the street and fell in love with immediately).

Thus Jung Sook begins to actively pursue the marriage to Hyuk Joon’s horror, even travelling from Seoul to Andong (a rural area where the Kwon household is located) to earn points with Hyuk Joon’s grandfather. Hyuk Joon’s grandfather takes an immediate liking to her despite her being from a poor background and not trained in the proper use of Korean traditional etiquette and household duties. Adamant that the marriage goes through, Hyuk Joon finally agrees to the marriage so as not to aggravate his grandfather’s ailing health and with the mutual agreement with Jung Sook that their marriage is only to be in name with each other not interfering in the other’s personal life.

All this takes place within the first few episodes and there is much more interesting twists and turns as Ga Young, Hyuk Joon’s aggressive university ex-girlfriend, is introduced and goes about trying to win back Hyuk Joon with the help of Sun Ah, Hyuk Joon’s sister who utterly dislikes Jung Sook and is against the marriage. Other obstacles like Hyuk Joon’s and Jung Sook’s constant bickering, the problems of living under one roof and the requirement of Jung Sook to meet the expectations of the Kwon family as the ‘wife of the heir’ also come into play to create some humorous moments and also further the plot. It would be too long to summarise the entire plot here but to put it briefly, in the end true love blossoms between Hyuk Joon and Jung Sook and their show marriage becomes a real one in all meanings of the word.

hahahahha...sweet story....really sweet...wish to get a husband like hyuk joon...seriously....

haaaa...and for love story in harvard...which i love the most....
huhe...to be cont again....internet damn slow!

JUST DO IT

2005-05-30T10:46:00.000-07:00

ahhhhhh...it's raining heavily outside...sounds like nice to sleep,huh?yeah right...but i'm no intention to sleep right now...as my mind kept on thinking about the presentation on thursday...more nervous when my supervisor will not there during the presentation... he is too damn busy...so on behalf of him...mr nasser will attend the presentation...erkk...cuak di situ...as for mr nasser...he doesn't know about my project...so i need to brief him earlier... huh...dua kali keje lak...that's what makes me become more nervous...
if with dr kamarul...he already aware with the project...and may backup my presenation especially during q&a...ish2....

huh...what's life right now...boring...boring...boring...wanna wait till thursday was so boring...aiyaaa...nothing much i can do... besides preparing the slides...just watching movies...korean movies laa lately...hoho...haaaa...the stories i told before...will be continuesd later huh...when i got the mood to continue...muahahahahah
actually...no time to summarised the whole story...

ermmmm...yesterday ibu called me...and she did mention about moving to my new house in putra heights..arghhhhhh!!!i'm so sorry ibu...i can't get back home early...to help u packing the things...i was kind of disappointed...coz ibu was not that healthy...to do all the work...baba too...just got fifi there to help...n maybe adik for small2 things...ish2...nenny was not around too...she had gone back to campus last week...so how?hope that my family will wait for me... before moving out...at least i am there to give a hand...if not... ibu n baba will be extremely exhausted...

ahhhhhhh...i was not sure with my new add...if i'm not mistaken... 46,Jalan Putra Permai 10/1F,47600 Subang Jaya...the poscode i'm not sure...but the main add is correct...huhu...ermmm...maybe u all can come...don't know when will be some majlis doa selamat...for the house...maybe in july...or august...don't know la...i'll invite all my friends then...no worries...huh...staying in a new house...new surroundings...arghhhhh...pressure...

i'm gonna be missing my old house soon...actually...i'm gonna miss the surroundings...staying in ss14 was completely happy...easy to go to anywhere...everything was there...lots of shops...clinics...near to the komuter station...banks...near to sunway pyramid...subang parade... carrefour...giant...lots of fast food restaurant...mcd.. pizza...kfc..arghhhhh...everything was damn easy to find...nice place to stay huh...i love this place...even though the house was quite small...but it was happy to stay there...

new place...new environment...new neighbours...n most important thing...quite dangerous...as not many people have move in there... aiyaaa...so how?have to move...no matter what....huhe...hope that i'll adapt to the environment soon...i love the scenery there...n it is near the field...basketball court...hahahahha...can play basketball more often...yeah...without any disturbance...sort of we gonna be pioneer there...interesting huh...

wellll...it is still raining outside...and i'm still writing my blog...while listening to this oldies song...called what a wonderful world...nice song...n right now...moving on to another song...by the corrs...and title...don't say you love me...best2...ahhhh... disconnected from the irc...what laa server...ish2...

LOVE STORY IN HARVARD

2005-05-28T11:14:00.000-07:00

another korean love story i watch lately... hahaha...addicted to korean movies,huh...what can i say...the stories were damn cool n great...can be watch many times...not boring at all...after watching fullhouse that day... i continued with sweet 18...n right now... love story in harvard...comparing all the 3 stories...i like the love story in harvard the most...

hahaha....as for the fullhouse...it was about a girl(ji eun)an orphan...lives with her friends...(a couple)...who got caught into a situation where she had to marry a korean movie star(yeung jae)... it started when her friends sold her house to this movie star...n she faught for her house..n at the same time...this movie star...wanted to runaway from gossips...so yeung jae decided to use this ji eun...and make a deal...they got married...but ji eun had to work for him as his servant for 3 months...then ji eun can get back her house...throught the story... there were so many conflicts...where ji eun fell in love with yeung jae...but yeung jae didn't realize that he too had fall in love with ji eun...it's a happy ending story...nice to watch them fighting...jual mahal sumer...huhu....16 episodes all together...stended...

ermmm...as for the 2nd story...sweet 18...more realistic story than fullhouse...it was about a girl...to be cont

HOLIDAY

2005-05-27T20:00:00.000-07:00

hermmm...going to be semester brak soon...just finished my last paper yesterday...n yet i'm still in utp...preparing for my fyp oral presentation...huh...if not...i'm going back home this week...have to stay longer just for a 25 minute stuff...aiyaa...
leceh gak aaa...then...HOLIDAYS!!thought of wanna work this holidays laa...maybe want to teach school children... math or english...or any other easy subjects...ala..yang simple2 jer...bukan susah sgt pun...huhe...

yesterday...just found out that...actually...there's one friend of mine who sort of hates me...what can i say...not all people like u...n not all people hates u too... but in my case...i was so shocked...as this person seemed to be nice to me...depan2 ok jer...eiiiiii...tah pape...at least...if u don't like somebody...act like one laaa...don't act differently in front of me...and at my back...hates me...aiyaaa...i really2 hate this kind of person laa...no matter what laa kan...i just forgive this person laa...it's ur choice to hate me...it's ok with me then...

sometimes...if we treat people nicely...they'll be fine...maybe this person will not hate me anymore if i kept on treating this person as a friend...i'm not a kind of person who hates somebody that easy...tak ske aa benci2 org ih...not my type laa... kind of serabut kepala n cam tak tenteram aaa kalau benci2 org...ish...how come this person can stand hating people?ish2...even to a close friend?iyerrrrr...

to those who hates me...just tell the truth...i don't mind...n i even can step back from being ur friend...no sweat laa kawan...just tell me..."i hate u laa nadia... stop being my friend..."or stuff like that...it's ok for me..rather then acting nicely in front of me...but at my back...ngumpat2...ish2...sedih aku....

ahhhhhh...forget about that thing...arghhhhhhhhh!!!!boring laaaa~~~nak tdo...daaaa~~~

NO TURNING BACK

2005-05-25T19:31:00.000-07:00

huh...hate waiting...hate waiting...hate waiting for people... seriously...i hate that stuff...waiting for people...and at the end.. didn't turn up...iskk...nak marah...tak patut...aiyaaa...

like this morning..hoping to meet with a friend in the library...but then...after waiting for 3 hrs...that person didn't turn up...hahahha...actually...it's not a promise...i just came there to study and at the same time...get to see this person laa...huhe..coz my friends said he used to go to the library...with a girl...dah ader girlfriend???aiseh...dah tak macho laa...coz dier jer yang leh laa tahan dalam batch aku...it's not that aku still minat...but then... just to confirm...n to make sure...n to see who is the lucky girl...
muahahahahaha..skali sampai aku abis study laa tak muncul2...aishhh...
dah aa sejuk nak mati kat library tuh...sedih tull...

ermmm...and sometimes what u want...u'll never get...but u'll always receive the unexpected ones...serious...this always happen to me..instead of hoping for someone...but turn up to be other person...what a life...sort of keciwa di situ...nasib badan...like what u said raph...sometimes...what u hope to get...u did't get..but what is unexpected...u can get...ish2...sedih gak if like this...

sok last paper...air pollution eng...hope can score this paper...coz all the hints were superb!pn fidza...memang weng...after this paper...
had to stay in utp for about a week...got my fyp presentation...on the 2nd...4 days before a his birthday...isk2...awat laa lewat sgt aku present ih...ish2...thought that i can get to present earlier...on the 31st...isk2...kena plak on the 2nd...geram tull!!

nway...wish me luck u guys...got a paper tomorrow n my presentation on the 2nd june...v-_-v peace!

~IT'S THE THOUGHT THAT COUNTS~

2005-05-24T09:10:00.000-07:00

love my family...love my friends...love u,raph...for wishing me...n for all ur thoughts on my birthday...those meant everything to me...thanx a lot!!really2 appreciate them...n the most meaningful msgs were:

"IS IT UR B'DAY 2DAY...HAPPY 22ND B'DAY THEN...HEHEHHEHE...MOGA PJG UMUR MURAH RZKI N BJAYA CMRLG!-from: ibu n the whole family-
****thanks to my mum n the whole family...for wishing...n most important...for ur support... love...shares...thoughts...n love u all always...****

"SMOGA BERBAHAGIA AND PJG UMUR...HEHE.LAMA TAK MSG KO KAN?NITE.." -from raph-
****thanx,raph...n for urself...do take care...coz i really care for u...be strong!!aja2 fighting! i'll always remember u in my prayers****

"NADIA...HAPPY BIRTHDAY NADIA...MAY U HAVE A WONDERFUL YEARS AHEAD..."
-from fer-
****thanx to u,fer...for all the thoughts..all the helps and things u've done utk aku...thanx...i'll always remember them...thanx...n sorry for evrything***

"SELAMAT HARI JADI...GOD BLESS...MOGA2 KAU GEMBIRA LA DI HARI LAHIR KAU..."
-from terk-
****as for u terk...thanx a lot....****

"NAD,BSOK BIRTHDAY KMU YA,HAPPY BIRTHDAY YA,HOPE U ALWAYS SUCCESS THROUGHOUT THIS YEAR AND YEARS AFTER."-from iqbal-
****hahahahha...to u,iqbal...terima kasih ya..kerana ingat harijadi saya...terharu~~~****

"YO KAKAK!!EPI ARI TUA!!!BE MATURED...BE TOUGH...BE 'AYU'... :P OPEN TABLE...JGN LUPE...THANX N SORRY 4 EVERYTHING...MAINTAIN CUNZ...JGN LUPER SERKUP!INGAT DAKU DALAM DOAMU(DOAKAN AKU DAPAT EHEM...EHEM...)...GUD LUX... JADIKAN IMPIAN SEINDAH PELANGI...WARNAI HIDUPMU DGN PERIBADI WANITA SOLEHAH YG MURNI...HIASI DIRIMU DGN AKHLAK KHADIJAH YG TERPUJI... GENGGAMI CITA2 MU YG TINGGI...MOGA APA YG KAU HAJATI...AKAN KAU KECAPI... JGN IDUP BERLANDASKAN EMOSI,GUNAKAN AKAL PIKIRAN YG TINGGI...SEMOGA HIDUPMU SENTIASA DIBERKATI..."-from hasfa(my roomate)-
****pjg tul msg kau,hasfa...thanks a lot!!!huhu...dah tua ker?lum lai...muda lai....sorry for everything too...n thanx again...****

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY NADIA..."-from all my friends...nor... waya...khuzai...fahimeh...husna... nina... miju...n others yang aku tak sebut nama(ramai sgt...sampai tak pasan)
****to u...all my beloved friends...thanx for teh wishes...***

Thanx a lot,u guys!!!really2 appreciate them!!!thanx a lot...n sorry for everything...kalau ader termakan..terminum...terkasar bahasa...terkutuk...termaki...terasa ngan aku...aku mohon keampunan di sini...sorry guys...

::: HAPPY BIRTHDAY :::

2005-05-24T00:01:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NADIA...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...

huhu...u r already 22!!!!so..hope that i'll live a happy life...success...good health...get what i wish to be...achieve everything i want...may Allah bless me...thanx to my parents...baba...en mohd nasir bin abdullah...ibu...pn jamilah hj osman...for raising me up...n for being best parents to me... thanx a lot...luv ya...

I WANT...

2005-05-23T10:42:00.000-07:00

i want...my family to be with me...

i want...a teddy bear....

i want...a squasy racquet...

i want...a cd player for my car...

i want...new sport rim....

i want...a digi cam....

i want...to meet u,raph...

i want...to meet anuar zain...

i want...a teddy bear...

i want...a teddy bear...

and teddy bear gak....lama tak dapat teddy bear...arghhhhhh...last time was 2 years ago...my mum gave me a huge teddy bear...hampir sama besar ngan aku...huhu...adik2 aku lak...duk gantung kat bilik aku...dah jadik cam org kena gantung...seram dowh...but right now...i just want a teddy bear yang sedang2 jer sizenyer....yang aku leh bwk tdo...huhu...ala2 bantal laaa...leh peluk...sedap dowh...huhe...aku dah giler...chow~~

PUISI CINTA

2005-05-20T14:46:00.000-07:00

suaramu...

gemersiknya bak buluh peindu...

cuba kau lagukan...

cuba kau dendangkan...

mengisi di ruang kamarku...

senyummu...

menusuk dan membelai di kalbu...

cuba kau ukirkan...

cuba kau pamerkan...

menjadi hiasan hidupku...

tiada perkataan...

seindah bahasa...

nak ku huraikan...

nak kubelaikan...

dirimu...

akanku syairkan katamu...

akanku madahkan janjimu...

menjadi coretan gurindam...

puisi cinta....

akanku ukirkan senyummu...

akanku lukiskan tawamu...

menjadikan susunan warna...

potret indah...

senyummu...

menusuk dan membelai di kalbu...

cuba kau ukirkan...

cuba kau pamerkan..

menjadi hiasan hidupku....

tiada perkataan...

seindah bahasa...

nak ku huraikan...

nak ku belaikan...

akanku syairkan katamu..

akanku madahkan janjimu...

menjadi coretan gurindam..

puisis cinta...

akanku ukirkan senyummu...

akanku lukiskan tawamu...

menjadikan susunan warna...

potret indah....

senyummu...
menusuk dan membelai di kalbu...
cuba kau ukirkan...
cuba kau pamerkan..
menjadi hiasan hidupku....

PLEASE DON'T SAY THAT

2005-05-18T11:05:00.000-07:00

errrrmmm...dont' say it...it's not a sign...it's just coincidence,raph...pertemuan tuh sumer Allah yang tentukan...i don't know what's His agenda...but then...it's not a sign...trust me...believe in urself...u got to be strong,rafill...hoho...the correct way to pronounce ur name,right?hahahhaha... nway...to raph...u got to be strong!!!livestrong...i should have given u the wrist band...stated livestrong to u...coz the baller id nih sumer...based on the campaigns held in us...and the colours meant for something...for example...the yellow colour...like i'm wearing right now...stated "livestrong"...is for the cancer campaign...n the glow in the dark...that u r wearing...(i guess so...n i hope so...)..i'm not sure what it's meant for...

huhu...right now is the exam week...arghhhhhh....sok start paper...wish me luck...to those who wishes me...thanx a lot...ermmmmm...to my friends...yang tgh sit for the exam...good luck!!all the best...break both legs....tata~~~~

p/s:raph...don't forget to take ur medicine...n pray hard...Allah will help u...n think positively... be strong...i'll be by ur side...to support u forever....

:::SURPRISED FROM IBU:::

2005-05-16T18:32:00.000-07:00

yeahhhhh...yipppeee...gumbire giler yesterday...got the chance to meet my family...they came to utp to visit me!!!huhe...what a surprise...my mom called that morning...telling me that she wanted to pass some things to her friend...and her friend will pass them to me...oh...i was so glad already...to hear that...then...that afternoon...i got another call from ibu...saying that her friend was already waiting for me at my car...i came down...and surprisingly...my family was there!!!!
bestnyerr....

hahahahahhahaahaha!!!!!best2...sonot2...dapat jumpa diorang...semangat nak peksa beb!!! best2...huhu...

IT HURTS A LOT

2005-05-14T09:44:00.000-07:00

huh...sometimes...technology sucks...n can ruin ur life..can make ur life miserable...n i hate it!not once...but so many times already...ibu kept on calling and msging me...coz risau...where am i... and what i do...it's not that i don't like...i really thanked my ibu for doing that...for being concern...but i don't like it when ibu scolded me...coz she thought i was somewhere else...instead of being in utp...huh..this is all because of the reception in utp...damn!n my ibu trust the friendfinder thing very much...that's why...

and when my reception is not that good...the friendfinder tend to jadik giler..went crazy...ader ker aku kat damansara memlm ari tuh?and just now...ibu said...i was located in bota?that was at 7?huh..i just woke up at that time...actually...tgh tdo lagik...so how?how come i was in bota?tak lojik langsung...ish2..sedih aku...

what makes me feel more sad...and worry...is that...ibu told me that she had to bring panadol or ponstan everywhere right now...coz afraid that she might suddenly get high blood pressure... arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!if ibu tend to always worried about me... coz she believes on that friendfinder thing...aiyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...camner?coz my reception is damn terrible in my room...n i am in my room most of the time...so how??ish...

FINALE

2005-05-13T09:20:00.000-07:00

arghhhhh..exam is around the corner...wish me luck...and as usual laa...study memang tak abis pun...hoho...so...ok laaa...aku sambung tulis after abis exam kott...or maybe on the 24th nanti kott..hehehheheeh...

.: SHOCKED :.

2005-05-10T11:31:00.000-07:00

ermmm...how u feel if someone u like...someone u care of...someone nice...someone that u anggap as a friend...a good friend...told u that he's sick...arghhhhhhh...it was a shock to hear that...coz he's too young to get that kind of penyakit...serius...i can't believe...i kept on thinking...how can he?erkkk...sedih gilerr dgr this news....i was quite worried with him right now...coz he can collapse anytime...anywhere...i really hope that he'll be fine...and Allah will save him...plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.....

i really hope that u'll not angry with me,raph...for writing this in my blog...i really2 don't know how to say right now...i'm totally shocked with the news...i hope that u'll be fine...do take the medicine...do take care of yourself...n do take a good rest everyday...eat healthy food...NO MAGGI,PLZ!serius...n be strong....don't give up...i know u r strong...i'll pray for your good health...

aku takut laa raph...serius...i don't wanna lose someone nice like u..u r my strength....arghhhhhhhh....how can this be????dah takdir Allah laa kan...i don't deny that...but it seems that...i seldomly seeing him...jarang spend time ngan dier...so i really2 hope we can hang outs sometimes...before it's too late...

i don't wanna lose him...seriously....Allah...plz help him...do save him...do bless him...help me~~~~over ker aku? aku rasa tak...coz i really2 care about him...as a friend...i think it's not wrong to show ur care to ur friends,right?
hope that i can meet him again ~~~~arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!i'm so sad.....

MOTHER'S DAY

2005-05-08T09:02:00.000-07:00

Dear Pn Jamilah Osman aka Mrs Jamie (namer glamour gitu)....

Me,nadia ain salma bt mohd nasir...ur eldest daughter...would like to thank u a lot...for becoming the greatest mom of all...for supporting me all this while...for giving birth to me...that is the most important thing...that one..i can't pay it...no matter how...for raising me up...till now...for feeding me...for teaching me...for scolding me...for showing me the right way...for giving me all the love... caring...for sharing with me ur heart....

And on this...not only during this Mother's Day...but then everyday...i would like to express my deepest gratitude to u,ibu...for all ur sacrifice...for me...and the 4 of us...for beingthe best mother...n i'll remember them all throughout my whole life...and here's a song for u,ibu...

You taught me everything
And everything you've given me
I always keep it inside
You're the driving force in my life, yeah

There isn't anything
Or anyone I can be
And it just wouldn't feel right
If I didn't have you by my side

You were there for me to love and care for me
When skies were grey
Whenever I was down
You were always there to comfort me
And no one else can be what you have been to me
You'll always be you always will be the girl
In my life for all times

Mama, mama you know I love you
Oh you know I love you Mama,
Mama you're the queen of my heart
Your love is like Tears from the stars
Mama, I just want you to know
Lovin' you is like food to my soul

You're always down for me
Have always been around for me even when I was bad
You showed me right from my wrong
Yes you did And you took up for me
When everyone was downin' me
You always did understand
You gave me strength to go on

There was so many times
Looking back when I was so afraid
And then you come to me
And say to me I can face anything
And no one else can do
What you have done for me
You'll always be
You will always be the girl in my life

This song is so damn famous for mums in the whole world....and to u,ibu...HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY...SELAMAT HARI IBU...MAY ALLAH BLESS U...GIVE U ALL THE HAPPINESS... GOOD HEALTH...AND INTAN LOVES U VERY MUCH, IBU....

DREAM~AHHHH~

2005-05-04T15:20:00.000-07:00

short n sweet dream...got it yesterday...it was like...my friends were walking in front...while i was walking behind...with a guy... but unfortunately...can't see his face...ahhhh...frust2...then...aku hulur tangan...n...dier sambut tangan aku...ahhhhhhhhhhh...best nyer...skejap jer that scene...then...i had too wake up...ader presentation maaaa~~~~

~~~peace~~~

LAGGING

2005-05-03T23:16:00.000-07:00

can u imagine...if u r in a situation...where u had to act like a stone...cam lagu audioslave lak... ish2..actually...it's not that u had to act like a stone...but ppl treat u like a stone...like hell,huh?it's not ur fault that u came across that kinda situation...but u r trying to be good to others...then...u r stucked in this kind of situation...

owhhhhhh...it was sucks!!serius...u can't even imagine...standing among ppl whom u didn't know much...some of them u know laa kan...that some pun...treat u like tunggul...so how?but most of them...u are not used too...but as usual laaa...i can act cool...wat derq jer...muka memang selamber derq tak hingat nyer...bese aaa...wa menten beb...

huh...but when i thought about it back...i felt so ashamed...giler malu...don't know how i can be there...ntahlaa...don't know what was the drag force...no one interesting pun maser tuh... moreover...i just recognize some of them...not all...n most of them were strangers...arghhhhh... let the feelings of ashamed go laaa...more than a week that thing happened...rileks aaa...u don't loose anything...in fact...u got to learn new things...how the things worked...what were the actions... what were the steps...strategies...many more...

but...seriously...i don't wanna stuck in that kind of situation again...say no to that situation!haha actually...cam keling lak ckp cenggini...arghhhhhhhhh...damn!!!someone...do help me to overcome these...shit!wish to be back home right now...wish to be in kl right now...actually... wish to be with someone in kl....arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! this are some of the impacts from the tense...got from the work had to be done right now...

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!should i tell?arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

NICE~~

2005-05-03T21:05:00.000-07:00

Andainya aku dapat berbicara dalam semua bahasa manusia,
tapi ku tak punya cinta, apalah erti hidup di dunia.......

Andainya aku mampu menyelami segala rahsia ilmu tapi ku tak punya iman,
aku sebenarnya belum tau apa-apa.....

Andainya aku mengagihkan segala apa milikku untuk semua
tapi ku tak punya ikhlas,
pengorbananku tak meninggalkan sebarang bekas.....

Cinta tidak membuat dunia berputar,
tetapi cintalah yang membuat putaran dunia tersebut berharga....

Cinta dimulai dengan sebuah senyuman,
berkembang dengan sebuah belaian dan berakhir dengan tangisan......

Nafsu adalah emosi,
cinta adalah pilihan....
Bila mimpi melampaui batas, ia akan menjadi sebuah impian....

Seseorang kawan tidak akan menjadi musuh kerana tidak menerima bantuan, tapi seseorang musuh mungkin akan bertukar menjadi kawan sekiranya diberi bantuan....

BE COOL

2005-05-03T19:30:00.000-07:00

uishhh...just got the time to browse through my best friend's friendster...coz some interesting pics were in there...then..opened his page...erkkkkkk...jiwang siottttt!!!damn!!!he used to gelak2 kan org2 jiwang ih...amik kau...skang saper yang jiwang ezanee??hahahahahahhahaha...still can't believe that!erkkkk...

then...msg him...told him that...thought that he'll be ashamed...aiyaaa...after all...he answered back...

"owh...dat...nothing's to be ashamed off...i'm in a healthy relationship...so what?it is not wrong right?moreover...i'm damn happy right now...hehe"

erkkk...lex aaa wey...aku lak yang termalu...aku bese aa..nak menganjing...skali terkena balik daaa...siotttt...penangan org dah ader makwe...ooooo...yer aaa...sombong skang...maser dlu...ish kan men...aku tampar gak kang...tp takper...sib baik ko baik...slalu dgr aku nyer citer2 yang tah pape...dulu laaa...skang tidak lagi...org dah ader committment...damn!

apsal aaa...org dah ader awek jer berubah trus...cam siott gak aaa...don't worry laaa...ppl won't be too much...won't ask u to treat them more than ur aweks...what laa this laki2 nih...aper tah dey all pk...huh...damn!

HUH

2005-05-03T16:15:00.000-07:00

huh?is it?yer ker?coz of that?huhhhhhh!!not relevant at all...tak masuk akal langsung...tak perlu pun...bazir jer...not worth at all...ish...

huh..forget it!nway...when my friends and i went to submit our eng econ report to mr zul...that handsome lecturer...hehehhe... just now...terserempak ngan ustaz nuri...dier pandang bese jer... then after submitting...terserempak lagik...then he approached us...asking us what year are we in...errrkkk...masing2 dah cuak...then i answered...as yang len speechless...

"tahun akhir..."then he left...

we were wondering...why he asked...masing2 cuak aaa...terasa sendrik...masing2 pakai lengan pendek sumer...malu siottt...aiyakkkk...malu gilerr...sendrik terasa beb!skang plak ader cover up campaign...lagik laaa...ish2...sodeh den..muehehehehheh...insaf nyer idak...don't know laa when to change...it takes time...go slow...one by one...yer ker?or makin jadik truk?ish2...tak2... maybe not...muahahahhahaha

~~~peace~~~

NERVOUS

2005-05-03T10:18:00.000-07:00

why am i nervous?don't know why...this feeling of nervous usually comes when i want to present my projects or to sit or the test or exam...but this feeling also used to came...bler aku ditakdirkan nak jumpa ngan someone...few years back...erk...takkan laaa...dah takde pun org tuh kat utp ih...then..saper plak aku nak jumpa...ish2...nonsense!both of them graduated already maaa...no one left...then?takkan nak jumpa lecturer aku leh nervous...ahhhh...karut marut!

errrm...i just wonder...why am i nervous...of course laaa coz i got AP test afterwards...but then... it is not that horror...ahhhhhhh...don't know laa why...nway...wish me luck man...poyo lak... nak test ih...actually...cam ngantuk bangat ih...slept at 4 yesterday...i was not sleepy when i went to sleep at that time...but right now...can't open my eyes...dah aaa memang semulajadik mater 5 sen...tak leh bukak lak ih...

aiyaaaaaaaaaa

^ SWEET ^

2005-05-02T18:10:00.000-07:00

There was once this guy who is very much in love with his girl.
This romantic guy folded 1,000 pieces of paper cranes as a gift to his girl.
Although, at that time he was just a small fry in his company,
his future doesn't seem too bright, they were very happy together.

Until one day,his girl told him she was going to Paris and will never come back.
She also told him that she cannot visualize any future for the both of them,
so they went their own ways there and then...

Heartbroken, the guy agreed.
But when heregained his confidence,
he worked hard day and night,
slogging his body and mind just to make something out of himself.
Finally with all the hard work and the help of friends,
this guy had setup his own company ..

You never fail until you stop trying.
One rainy day,while this guy was driving,
he saw an elderly couple sharing an umbrella in the rain walking to some destination.

Even with the umbrella, they were still drenched.
It didn't take him long to realize they were his girl's parents.
With a heart in getting back at them,
he drove slowly beside the couple,
wanting them to spot him in his luxury sedan.

He wanted them to know that he wasn't the same any more;
he had his own company, car, condo, etc.
He made it! What hesaw next confused him,
the couple was walking towards a cemetery, and so he got out of his car and followed...
and he saw his girl,
a photograph ofher smiling sweetly as ever at him from her tombstone and he saw his paper cranes rightb eside her...

Her parents saw him.
He asked them why this had happened.
They explained, she did not leave for France at all.
She was ill with cancer.
She had believed that he will make it someday,
but she did not want to be his obstacle...
therefore she had chosen to leave him.

Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to,
doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
She had wanted her parents to put his paper cranes beside her,because, if the day comes when fate brings him to her again...he can take some of those back with him...

Once you have loved, you will always love.
For what's in your mind may escape but what's in your heart will remain forever.
The guy just wept...The worst way to misssomeone is to be sitting right beside her knowing you can't have her, see her or be with her ever again.........hope you understand.Find time to realize that there is one person who means so much to you, for you might wake up one morning losing that person who you thought meant nothing to you.

THE PAST

2005-05-02T17:19:00.000-07:00

arghhhhhh...just discovered...i used to chat among my housemates...my gang...about our past... during our first year... arghhhhhhhhhh...when i was in my first year...i admire this boy...hahahah known as butet aka sharil niza...muahahahahha...hope that he will not read this...arghhhhh... mati beb...long time ago maa...kisah dulu...

i wonder how all the boys in my batch...dah tau kisah nih...but then..they just kept to themselves...as i just act cool..as if it was not me...who admired butet...hahahahahha...malu nyerrr...rupa2 nyer diorang dah tau...siotttt!!!then just now...we discovered back...how that knew about it...n we thought it was one of the girl in our batch who took up the dedications at that time...yeahhhh...she was the one...if pun laa kan..who else?

arghhhhhhhhhhhhh....malu nyerr!!!nway...to butet...jgn marah ek...tuh kisah lama maaa... peace!

LET'S GET STARTED

2005-05-02T02:20:00.000-07:00

what a day...started with reports..ends up with reports too..everyday looking at the reports... and as a change...look at the presentation slide...huh...life's like that...talking about all these was not interesting at all...especially when u wanna release ur tension...huh..tak best langsung...

actually don't know what to write...it's just that i'm so happy today...i don't know why...maybe coz dissertation completed or what...can't explain with words laa..how i felt today...i'm damn happy..since morning...even though spending the time writing reports...but still i was too happy...maybe becoz the night before....angah online...hahahhahaa..tuh memang gembira...tp takde aaa cam gembira nak mati...it was like...i was too happy...but tak elok gak happy2 sangat... nanty sedih lak...ish2

ermmm...dah ngantuk ih...aku nak tdo dlu aaa...nak tunggu org online...lambat sangat...oppsss... ok aaa..gua chow dlu...chow cincau...

THAT'S WHEN I LOVE YOU

2005-05-01T15:30:00.000-07:00

i still remember the moment when u asked me everything...the moment u show ur care...the moment u call me just to say hello...the moment when u tell me everything u've been through all day long...the moment when u smile at me...the moment when u laughed out loud...the moment when u whisper at my ears...asking me to be with u...the moment when u make me laugh with all ur jokes...the moment when u look into my eyes when u talk to me...the moment when u help me washed my car n i helped to wash urs...the moment when u play the guitar for me...the moments when everything was so sweet...

those moments remain still in my heart and never will be thrown away...stay still inside my heart..trust me...n the feelings will never changed...even after trying to forget everything... the feelings become stronger and stronger...means that i will never forget u...and even though u didn't show it...i can feel it...

when i was sick last week...u r the one who called me...ask me..am i doing fine?taken my medicine or not...asking about all my projects...studies...ermmm...that's when i love u,my dear... n i always will...trust me!ahhhhh~~~i think i love you~~~nope...i'm sure i'm in love with u...

MSG THROUGH LAGU:KU TAHU KAU RINDU

2005-05-01T14:24:00.000-07:00

Kutahu kau rindu....
Sejakku meninggalkanmu...
Kutahu kau pilu...
Bimbangku melupakanmu....

Sejak kau lukakan hatiku....
Mempermain cinta suciku....
Siang dan malam tangisi....
Silamku....

Kasih sayangku yang bersemi....
Ku tabur racun yang berbisa....
Dibelakangku di tertawa dan hina....

Mungkin aku tiada yang lain.....
Kerna itu kau berani berpaling.....
Membiarkan aku tertanya....
Siapa milikku...

Sehingga ku meninggalkanmu....
Baru kini engkau terasa....
Cinta siapa lebih perdana

TENTANG DIA

2005-05-01T11:20:00.000-07:00

Sehitam langit di angkasa

Yang mendung memurungkan bumi

Takutku temasya yg lalu

Menorehkan luka dalam hati
Kekasih yang kini cintaku

Di sinilah cintaku berlabuh

Perjalanan mencari jawapan

Berakhir karam di hatimu
Cerita cinta anak remaja

Menggauli hidup kasih

Mudah dan takut di hati

Tergugurlah

Bila kita berpisah

Selamanya harus bersama

Buktikan kita bahagia
Tentang dia

Tak perlu kau risau

Ku cinta hanya untuk kita

Dan kini tidurku tersenyum

Oo **** aku cinta padamu
Kekasih yang kini cintaku

Di sinilah cintaku berlabuh

Perjalanan mencari jawapan

Berakhir karam di hatimu
Cerita cinta anak remaja

Menggauli hidup kasih

Mudah dan takut di hati

Tergugurlah

Bila kita berpisah

Selamanya harus bersama

Buktikan kita bahagia
Tentang dia

Jangan pernah terlupa

Biar menjadi cerita

Di balik cerita kita
Tentang dia

Tak perlu kau risau

Ku cinta hanya untuk kita

Dan kini tidurku tersenyum

Oo **** aku cinta padamu

COMEL IS SICK~~~THANKS TO NOR N FATAN N FER

2005-04-30T15:08:00.000-07:00

arghhhhh...comel is sick!!!i was quite panic just now...start2...tak nak start...alarm keep on bunyik lak tuh...arghhhhhh...luckily i was still in utp...kalau dah ke ipoh td?so how?aiyaaa...lama gak aaa try2...kuar masuk...kuar masuk...bukak tutup...bukak tutup kete...thought was the key...bese aaa banyak kali jatuh...tapi...tak relevan langsung...then...came 2 same cars...both aku kenal...yang fer dah berlepas ke parking jauh sket...it's ok...dah terlepas...takkan aku nak jerit... then...the 3rd angel in my life came...selamatkan keadaan...that was fatan!!!

huh...luckily dier park tak jauh sgt...sian plak...sbb tgh bwk lunch...dah kena tolong...panas nyer bukan main maser tuh...aiyaaa...dier try start...takleh gak...bukak tempat bateri...tgk air penuh jer...tp...dier kater possibility starter rosak...or bateri kong...aiyakk...duit lagik!!!ish2...giler down...then dier suh aku duk dalam kete...masuk gear 3...lepas hand break..then dier n nor tolak...pas dah laju sket...kena angkat clutch...erkkk...aku ingat senang jer...cam pening lak...hahaha..aku suh dier yang duk dalam tuh...aku n nor tolak...

ok aaa...mumuler dier tak nak...cam tah pape aa kan...laki yang patut tolak...tp dier ikut jer... dah lapar agaknyer...siap kira kuat2 lak tuh..

"1...2...3...tolak!!!!"kuat dowh jerit....
tau aaa kan kederat pompuan...tak kuat...tak cukup laju...tp...aku dengar lak sore2 sumbang maser tuh...dari tingkap blok a tuh...lebey kuang cam...

"tolak...tolak..."cam bersorak tgk bola lak...damn!!!

so dier pun suh aku yang duk dalam...dier n nor tolak...kuat siott...siap jerit lagik skalik tuh... maser dah laju sket...

"sekarang!!!angkat!!!"kuat dowh...aku yang tak bukak tingkap leh dgr...nor kater memang kuat giler...

then dah leh gerak...kena wat satu pusingan lak kat tempat parking...terserempak ngan fer...n aku cam nak tergelak pun ader...dier tanya aa what happened...then i just said that kete takleh start...

thanx to nor...coz tolong tolak kete...teman gi ganti bateri...to fatan coz tolong tolak...thanx a lot... n to fer..thanx coz bertanya...thanx a lot guys...

n to comel...take care...dah dapat ubat...hopefully tak sakit lagi...ahhhhh...giler down...

ZERO TO HERO

2005-04-29T10:13:00.000-07:00

we need to be happy...don't remember all the sad things...is the best thing to do if u wanna ur life as happy as possible...yeah...wake up this morning with a new life...new hope...focus...yeah...if not...until when i must think about all the sadness...from now onwards...i wanna think positive... think all the happiness i might been through...yup!no more tears...cam iklan johnson n johnson lak...huhe...erm...what can i say...this is just the beginning of the day...wait till the end of the day...then i'll know whether my life isn't miserable anymore or not...but i'll try to cheer myself up...

yesterday my friends and i went to watch the melody nite held at the chanselor hall...best... enjoyable...except for a girl named minh anh...from vietnam...huh...her voice sucks man! seriously...don't know how she managed to win staged 4...damn!that time we were so mad and damn angry with the result...and guess what?she became more perasan laaa....after that...she thought that her voice was superb...like yesterday...huh...it's not that i wanna condemn that girl...but it's true...everybody said that...nahhhh...don't care laa about that girl...overall...the performance was great!especially when one of the sudanis guy sang a song...and playing hi sguitar too...ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...i do adore people who could play the guitar...memang best... cair beb...amier nama mamat tuh...and he's cool...his slang was not like other sudanis...he sounds like us people...great huh!wish that someone can play the guitar for me...and credits to this someone if he can sing!ahhhhhhhhhhhh...saper laaa ek...seriously...i admire people who can sing while playing the guitar...ahhhhhhhhhhhh...memang tangkap lentok aaa...

there was one performance called "tronoh idol"...hahaha...it was kind of sketch...it was about a guy wanted to become an idol...then there was a ginie...who came to him to fulfill his wishes...his wishes were he wanted to meet some artists...so he wished to meet usher...kelly clarkson... enrique iglesias...william hung...and siti?huh...perlu ker siti di situ?and...all the performer who represents the artists were damn good and funny...especially the siti part...they were look alike!!!serious...i laughed out loudly...lawak dowh...memang samer...ader iras...in a glance u'll think that is siti...actually she's a niger...hahahahahhaha...dah aaa dier pakai baju kurung... goyang2 rambut...sebijun siottt...hahahahahhahahaha...padan muka!!sama tuh...so to those who admires siti...do search for this girl in utp...and u'll be surprised!they are look alike!

hahahahahahhahahahaa

^ H A C T I C ^

2005-04-29T02:01:00.000-07:00

arghhhhh...too much work to be done...next week was totally bz time...crash boom bang! everything wanna be carried out next week...i got my final report and eng econ report to be submitted on tuesday... on wednesday got test and eng economy presentation...on thursday got lab presentation...on friday got the air pollution test...arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!too much work...too little time... hahahahahhahaha...familiar lak ayat ih...

serius bz lately...but people seemed to see me very relaxing...hahahhaha...work smart laa kwn... watper tekanan2....huhe...bese laaa...kena menten beb!everybody is bz...but u must act cool... be cool...stay happy always...act as if u r not bz...that's life as a final year...lumrah...bz2 ih...isk2... look at me like i don't have any work to do...but then...inside my head...too many things to think about...but i just do it in a relaxing way...yeah...rileks jer...muehehehehhee

OPERATION TIMED OUT

2005-04-28T16:34:00.000-07:00

ho yeah...test dah abis...objective pun...but then it was like no chance to copy at all!!huh... thought that only mr nasir invigilated us...but then...it seemed that...there were 2 more person laa kan...yang menyibuk...luckily both were handsome...hahahhaa...fendi ngan ziqr jaga...huhe... ziq tuh makin lamer tgk makin comel beb...cam leh terpikat aaa...sengeh jer keje....fendi lak kontrol macho...gaaa~~~~

both of them play football ptg2 kat v4 field nih...leh aa tgk skali skala nanti...coz not all the time they were playing there...most of the time kat court...maybe today kat court...coz ader game lecturer vs staff...erm...volleyball actually...hahahaha...fendi2...hensem dowh...got the package laa...same goes to ziqr...both from different state laa...one from pahang...the other is from terengganu...of course laa fendi from pahang...luckily...no offense huh!

CHEM LAB III TEST

2005-04-28T14:16:00.000-07:00

wakakakkaka...nih pun aku nak tulis...sajer...otak dah weng...nak pi test dah nih...good luck, nadia...all the best...no one is wishing...that's why wish diri sendrik...giler down...if laa my parents were here...someone was here...to wish me...takper laa...aja2 fighting...go go nadia!

U WERE MEANT FOR ME

2005-04-28T13:05:00.000-07:00

everytime i look back...i realize that i didn't make any mistake in choosing u...it was not wrong to fall in love with u...coz my heart said so...u r the one i've been searching for...i can't throw all these feelings of love...care...like...miss...jealous...everything laa...those are the strong feelings i felt about u...come on laa...don't u understand?haven't u felt the same way too?do tell me...don't lie to urself...if u do feel the same way...tell me,man!i can accept it...don't be too ego...what is there to be ego?

i think if a man confess to a girl...that he had fall in love with that girl...it will not effect his reputation or what...but it rather shows that the guy is very gentleman...serious!i can bet...nowadays...not many guys would have done that...most of them just waited for the girls to confess...and after thet girl had confessed..he may rejected the girl...cam jual mahal laa kunun... hell!it's not fair at all!

huh...what can i say...this time...i don't wanna start it first...i'll wait until this person realize that i was meant for him and he was meant for me..till he realized that he likes me too...i'll wait...don't care how long it may take...i don't care...i just wait...but if somebody else comes first...proving his love to me...than i'll accept that person...dah lambat sangat...umur makin tua bang...aiyaaaa...
but i still pray for him to be the first...a bit difficult and impossible laaa...ish2...

i feel so far from where I've been...dreams last for so long...even after you're gone...i know you love me...and soon you'll see...you were meant for me...and I was meant for you...it was happy and i was sad...it made me miss you... oh so badly...i go about my business...i'm doing fine... besides, what would i say if i had you on the line...same old storty...not much to say...hearts are broken everyday...i'm half alive but I feel mostly dead...i try to tell myself it'll be alright...i just shouldn't think anymore tonight...yeah...deams last for so long...even after you're gone...i know you love me...i know that...and soon...i know you'll see...hopefully...believe me...you were meant for me...and i was meant for you....yeah...believe me....

.: A MOMENT TO REMEMBER :.

2005-04-28T11:20:00.000-07:00

sometimes...to forgive someone is hurting...but u have to forgive someone...but forgiving is giving ur hate just a little room in ur heart...ermm...and can i forgive that easy?i got to think about it...it's not easy man...huh...

there was a korean movie...just watched it yesterday...very touching...serius...nangis beb...mmg tersentuh abis aaa....cair ngan pakwe dier...memang laaa hensem...but he's too gentleman... caring...bapak aaa...suggest that u guys watch that movie...tak rugi...serius...don't wanna tell the sypnopsis...kang dah tak best...see and u judge...yeah...serius best...sedih giler...berbunga2 gak... cairrrrrrrrrr....

ermmmm....that moment...i won't forget...is when...i accidentally met him...on a fine day...tak janji pape...suddenly got the chance to meet him..after quite a long time never seeing him...then suddenly he appeared in front of me...right in front of me...with a big smile...he asked me... "how are you?"ahhhhhhhhhh..comelnyerrr...seriously...i'm the happiest person at that moment...and i'll never forget that...never...that moment to remember....yeahhhhh

JOKES:HOW DID I COME INTO THIS WORLD

2005-04-27T11:50:00.000-07:00

"Daddy? How did I come into this world?"

"Well, my child, some day I'll have to tell you any way."

"So why not today? Please!"

"OK, but listen carefully. Mom and Dad met each other in a cyber cafe.
In the restrooms of that cyber cafe, dad connected to mom.
Mom at that time made some downloads from dad's memory stick.
When dad finished uploading we discovered we used no firewall.
Since it was too late to cancel or delete, nine months later we ended up with a virus."

NEVER CHANGE

2005-04-27T11:03:00.000-07:00

back to a better story...rather than that rude person!errmm...actually...even though i tried to avoid...to ignore...try to forget him...i still can't do it!yer laa...ati dah terpaut maaa....dah suka...i like him very much!n i can't deny it...aiyaaaa...camner aku nak wat...

yup!it is difficult to change ur feelings...to turn the like into dislike...love into hate...susah beb... serius...if u ever felt this kind of feelings...i'm sure u'll know...a person told me...if u love someone...let him go...but to let him go is very hurting...i can't do it!even trying is not worth....it hurts me a lot!so i thought of leaving all the memories in my mind...keep all the feelings in my heart...no need to throw away...

lonely...i'm still lonely...i have nobody...to call my own...i'm so lonely...i'm mr. Lonely...I have nobody...to call my own...i'm so lonely...ermmmtul kater akon nih..i used to listen to this song lately...and tend to like it!and i'm so lonely....

BULLSHIT

2005-04-27T10:31:00.000-07:00

damn!siottttttttttt!!!!!cam sial!!!!babi aaa!!!!aku sampai satu tahap memang leh meletup...aku ih pantang dicabar wey...mula2 tuh aku leh tahan lagik...nih dah men kasar ih...aku dah cam leh anggap musuh tuh dah tahap max...aku kalau benci orang...susah...memang truk aaa...jangan cabar aku...tolong laaa pompuan...

pantang tul...kalau aku nak wat baik...org gelak2 ker...menganjing ker...hina ker...ejek ker... sumer aaa...sial jer!tak suka sendrik2 laaa...tak yah aa libatkan org len...org len suka...biar aaa... dah kau tak suka...kau diam jer laaa...nih tak...kau nak ejek2 orang plak...kuang ajar nyer kawan!camtuh ker nama kawan?babai aaa!!!!!!!

pagi2 dah wat darah aku naik...dah wat aku marah!!!kes nyer senang jer...aku cam tetiba nak banjer org semlm...so aku bg aaa coklat kat kwn2 aku...tapi...ader aaa sorang nih...yang sewel ih...dier cam tak suka aaa...aku tau aaa gaya org tak suka plus tak sudi terima ih...tak kisah lagik tak suka...dah aaa tak cakap thanx...aku sabo lagik...skali tuh...dier gelak2 kan lak kwn aku yang len...yang dapat gak...apsal lak...what the hell nak gelak...aper salah aku??nak wat baik pun cam kena anjing...sial aa lu!

aku memang agak bengang ngan dier nih lately...tapi aku diam jer...takde aaa nak tunjuk aku geram or bengang...sebab aku malas aaa nak bermusuh...tapi...org dah cabar....aku dah aaa tak suka dicabar...silap org aaa dier ih nak carik gaduh...aku kalau aku dah tak suka...sampai mati aku ingat...leh jadik perang besar ih...ish...geramnyer aku!!!!aku wat jahat kang...ko melutut mintak maaf ngan aku kang....ish2....

aku nih kira berhati perut gak aaa...even b4 this aku cam geram ngan dier...aku bg can lagi...coz aku pk aaa...dier kwn aku...plus ader gak tolong aku...berjasa gak laaa...minah ih...tapi...biler sampai satu tahap semlm...aku jadik hangin...panassss!!!sakita ati!!!aku susah nak angin nih... tp skali aku meletup....hancur beb!ishhh...siap aaa dak ih...takde der aku nak bg muka pasnih...no way!!!!

LOVE VS LIKE

2005-04-26T12:57:00.000-07:00

Di hadapan orang yang kita cinta,
Hati kita akan berdegup kencang...
Tapi di depan orang yang kita suka,
Hati kita akan gembira...

Di depan orang yang kita cinta,
Musim sentiasa berbunga-bunga...
Di depan orang yang kita suka,
Musim itu cuma berangin sahaja...

Jikalau kita lihat di dalam mata orang yang kita cinta,
Kita akan kaku...
Tapi jikalau kita melihat ke dalam mata orang yang kita suka,
Kita akan tersenyum...

Di depan orang yang kita cinta,
Lidah kelu untuk berkata-kata...
Di depan orang yang kita suka,
Lidah bebas berkata apa sahaja...

Di depan orang yang kita cinta,
Kita menjadi malu...
Di depan orang yang kita suka,
Kita akan tunjukkan imej yang sebenar...

Kita tidak boleh merenung mata orang yang kita cinta...
Tapi kita selalu merenung mata orang yang kita suka...

Bila orang yang kita cinta menangis,
Kita akan turut menangis...
Bila orang yang kita suka menangis,
Kita akan turut membuat dia gembira...

Perasaan cinta bermula dari mata,
Perasaan suka bermula dari telinga...
Jadi, jikalau kita berhenti menyukai seseorang yang kita suka...
Umpama kita membuang telinga kita
Tapi jika kita cuba menutup mata
Cinta berbuah menjadi airmata

Setiap orang yang akan mengalami ini dalam hidup mereka,
Hakikatnya
Cinta kepada Allah swt
Adalah lebih hakiki dan abadi
Kasih sayang-Mu Tuhan,
Itu yg kudambakan...
Dgn rahmat-Mu,
Ampunilah dosaku...

TRUE LOVE

2005-04-26T12:25:00.000-07:00

I SAID...
If you see me walking the road with someone else,
It's not because I like his accompany...
Its because you're not brave enough to walk beside me

If you hear me talking about him all the time...
Its not because he pleases me...
Its because you're too deaf to hear my heartbeat

If you feel me falling with someone new...
Its not because I love him..
But because you're not there to catch me fall

If you feel lost,
I too am nowhere...
I too don't know where the road is going

Are we gonna cross each other's path?
Or just completely turn around?
Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound

Don't let me walk with him,
It's you I want to walk with..

Don't let me talk of him,
It's you I want to talk with..

Don't let me fall for him,
It's you I want to fall in love with..

THAT PERSON SHOULD REPLY...
When you thought I wasn't brave enough to walk beside you...
I was behind you every step of the way...
Still filled with awe because of the beauty that stand before me...

When you thought I was too deaf to hear your heartbeat...
I didn't want to assume anything...
And I was afraid to lose our friendship

When you thought I wasn't there to catch you,
It was because you never gave me the chance....
You never reached the bottom,
You've already grabbed a branch

If you feel like you are nowhere,
I too am lost...
I too don't know where the road is going

Are we just going to turn around,
Or are we gonna cross each other's path?
Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound?

Don't let me walk alone...
I want to walk by your side...
Don't let me talk of something else...
It's you I want to talk with...
Don't let me fall for someone else...
It's you I want to fall in love with

WHEN I SAW YOU...

I WAS AFRAID TO TALK TO YOU...

WHEN I TALKED TO YOU...

I WAS AFRAID TO HOLD YOU...

WHEN I HOLD YOU...

I WAS AFRAID TO LOVE YOU...

NOW THAT I LOVE YOU...

I'M AFRAID TO LOSE YOU...

SOMETIMES LOVE HURTS...

BUT IF IT DOESN'T HURT...

THEN IT ISN'T LOVE...

TWO IN ONE

2005-04-26T10:00:00.000-07:00

apa maknanya impian...datang dan pergi...membawa hati...menyusuri kembali...jalan2 sepi...kau kah di situ...yang menantiku...atau jelmaan titik kenangan...yang bernama pengalaman... siapakah di antara kita...dengan rela menjadi pendusta...siapakah dulu membina harapan...dan siapa yang memusnahkan impian..tanpa sebab dan alasan...kau mainkan perasaan...bagai taufan...tiba2 datang dan menghilang....

kau...bayang2...masa nan silam...ada ketika terbawa-bawa...oleh resah...mimpi yang tak sudah... siapakah di antara kita...dengan rela menjadi pendusta...siapakah dulu membina harapan...dan siapa yang memusnahkan impian...tanpa sebab dan alasan...kau mainkan perasaan...bagai taufan...tiba2 datang...dan menghilang....

kau...bayang2...masa nan silam...ada ketika terbawa-bawa...oleh resah...mimpi yang tak sudah... oleh resah...mimpi yang tak sudah...

dengan bahasa...kalimah yang sama...puji dan memuja...dilindung dan dibuka...rahsia kan tetap rahsia...indah bukan rupa...harum bukan bunga...manis bukan gula...panas bukannya bara... cinta kan tetap cinta....sejak ku kenali...cintamu yang suci...aku telah berjanji...tak berpaling lagi...akan aku genggam api...hingga menjadi besi...dan nyata sebati....

gelap bukan malam..terang bukan siang...satu tak terbilang...hanyut tak terenang...waktu tak terasa...rindu tak terkata...asyiknya cinta....dan hanya kepadamu....ku serah jiwa ragaku... walau berjuta seteru...tak ku ragu....

VERY TIRING LAAA TO THINK

2005-04-25T23:53:00.000-07:00

arghhhhhhhh!!!!damn it!shit!hell!sial!siottt!arghhhhhhhhhh!!!!arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! tension dowh...apsal cam ni?why?why?why?why?pi mampos aaa!!!go to hell!!!i can stand it laaa....kot!!!!!cam takleh jer!!!!!arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!aku tertekan ngan keadaan camni!!!!damn!!!!!!!!arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!sumer org!!!!!!!!!!!!tolong laaa aku!!!!!!!tak larat ih!!!!!!!!!!!!penat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!letih!!!!!!!!!penat!!!!!!!!!!!

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RUN AWAY

2005-04-25T23:05:00.000-07:00

have u ever wonder...if someone...sort of runaway from u...but u don't know why...and that's what happen to me right now...one of my friend...trying to runaway from me...but why?i'm the one who should runaway...not my friend...coz i'm the one who created the probs...hahaha...or maybe aku jer yg perasan kot...tah2 dier tak lari pun...aper aaaa kau nih nadia...

but then...we can realize whether that person is trying to avoid us or not...obvious laaa...that's why...biarlaa..nak wat camner...i have other friends too...not this friend only...it's ok...coz i know that not all people like me...most of them hates me maa...i'm a bad friend...damn cruel...serious... that's why i don't blame this person for trying to runaway...i deserved that...yo ma man!cool2 nadia...kind of sad also...to lose a friend in a short time...

huh...cam miss this person also laa...coz dier kwn aku...the way dier act pun dah len...aper salah aku wey...bgtau jer laa...kalau laa aku leh ckp cenggini...lamer aku ckp kat kau...aku takde kederat nak tanya...coz aku tau aku salah...sorry for everything...ermm..down gak aaa...coz i do realized all ur ways to runaway from me...tapi takde laa kantoikan kau...aku paham...damn! this blog is the last place aku leh share what i felt right now...shit!aku bukan laa nak over2 ker aper... just that aku cam sedih...sayang dowh kwn...if that guy i miss a lot...i miss this friend even more!

LOVE UR MUM

2005-04-25T22:33:00.000-07:00

Semasa kita berumur 1 tahun,
ibu menyuapkan makanan dan memandikan kita
Tapi kita hanya membalasnya dengan menangis sepanjang malam..

3tahun,
ibu menyediakan dan menyuapkan kita
dengan makanan yang penuhlazat dan berzat
Namun kita membalas budinya dengan menumpahkan makananke lantai...

4tahun,
ibu membeli krayon untuk mengajar kita lukisan
Tapi kita membalasnya dengan menconteng dinding di rumah..

5tahun,
ibu membeli kita baju raya yang baru di Hari Raya
Namun kita mengotorkannya apabila kita jatuh ke dalam lopak..

7tahun,
ibu menghantar kita ke sekolah
Tapi kita mengatakan dan menjarit.."TAK NAK"..

10tahun,
ibu menghantar kita pergi menghadiri kelas tuisyen,
bershopping,ke rumah kawan
Namun, kita tidak pernah toleh kebelakang dan mengucapkan terima kasih...

11tahun,
ibu membelikan kita sebiji bola sepak
Tapi kita membalasnya dengan memecahkan cermin tingkap rumah jiran kita...

12tahun,
ibu sentiasa menasihatkan kita agar jangan menengok tv selalu
Namun,kita membalasnya dengan menengok tv apabila ibu tiada di rumah..

13tahun,
ibu menegur fesyen rambut kita yang kurang sopan
Tapi kita membalasnya dengan mengatakan "IBU NI TAKDE TASTELAH!!"

16tahun,
ibu inginkan dakapan daripada kita setelah penat dan baru balik drp kerja
Namun kita membalasnya dengan mengunci diri kita di dalambilik dan bersendirian...

17tahun,
ibu menangis kegembiraan apabila kita mendapat keputusan yangcemerlang
Tapi kita tidak pulang ke rumah sampai lewat malam keranacelebrate dengan kawan2..

19tahun,
ibu membelanjakan wang yang banyak untuk kita masuk u danmengankat beg kita dengan penuh rasa kasih dan sayang
Namun,kita membalasnya dengan menyalam ibu di luar dorm kerana malu nampak dek kawan-kawan..

20tahun,
ibu bertanya sama ada kita mempunyai gf/bf?Tapi kita membalasnya dengan mengatakan.."KEPOHLAH IBU NI!"..

21tahun,
ibu bertanya pa cita2 kita?
Namun kita menjawabnya.."BUKAN MACAM IBU!!"..

23tahun,
ibu membelikan kita baju baru kerana kita mendapat kerja baru
Tapi kita membalasnya dengan mengatakan kepaa kawan2 bahawa baju itu tidak cantik kerana ibu yang belikan..

25tahun,
kita berumahtangga dan ibu menangis kegembiraan dan berkata ibu sayang dan kasih kepada kamu
Namun,kita membalasnya dengan berpindah danberjauhan dengan ibu sejauh 300km..

27tahun,
ibu menelefon kita dan memberi nasihat tentang penjagaan bayiTapi kita membalasnya dengan mengatakan "ZAMAN SEKARANG LAINLAH BU!!"

40tahun,
ibu menelefon dan memberitahu ada kenduri di kampung Namun kitamembalasnya dengan mengatakan.."SAYA SIBUKLAH BU SEKARANG NI!!"...

50tahun,
ibu sakit dan memerlikan penjagaan dan kasih sayang kita..
Kita balik melawatnya dengan membawa buah tangan apple dan merungut tentang kesibukan di tempat kerja..
dan segera balik ke kota..

Satu hari,ibu meninggal dunia..
Sempatkah kita membalas jasa ibu?Berbaloikah jasa ibu ke atas kita?Sedangkan kita langsung tidak mebalas budinya..Sayangilah ibu sebelum dia pergi meninggalkan kitaMeninggalkan duniaMeninggalkan kenangannya bersama kitaSedangkan dia telah pergi menemui cinta suci...cinta hakiki..CINTA TERAGUNG...

PLAYING WITH NUMBERS

2005-04-25T20:23:00.000-07:00

when i calculated...sometimes...it is 96...sometimes it is 15...and it can be 4...it can be 9 also...or sometimes it turn out to be 16...it can also be 35...and also 14...can be 42...can be 10...can also be 13...and 48 too...erm...yeah...this is a kind of trick...

to my blog's readers aka my friends...yeah...actually...these numbers are related to the person i adore...yeah...to whom it may concern or to anyone...if u can guess who is this person...do tell me...a good reward will be given...i promised!

clues:
1) only first degree of calculation...means...if i use addition...only addition...no further calculation such as i use addition again or subtraction or etc...

2) it is not an easy clue..such as i use the person's jersey number...etc...no way man...that's so easy...

3) the answer must be the person's name and what all the numbers are all meant for...where do the numbers came from...

4) good luck!

hahahahaha...i love all the numbers...can u guess?try it!trust me...it's worth to figure them out!

A SWEET DREAM

2005-04-25T16:33:00.000-07:00

haaa..yesterday...got a dream...i dream of adam farhan...comel gilerr...aku nak jumpa dier laa raph...serius...leh ker?kau pun jarang jumpa dier...aku lagi laa...coz dier comel sgt...i love kids... that's why...i wanna meet him...agak2 dier ske ker kat aku?hahahahhaha...

STILL LOVING YOU

2005-04-25T16:05:00.000-07:00

i'm kind of lost...when i'm not with him...i'm kind of sad...when he's not the same as before...n i don't know why...i can't figure it out...i kept on thinking to myself...maybe it's my fault or maybe it's not...i'd rather hurt myself...than ask him why...ermmm...some words from various songs... mixed up...can become a new sng based on my life...isn't that nice,huh?yeah right!layan laaa otak weng aku ih....

to whom it may concern...i miss taht person a lot right now...that's why i'm like this...talking nonsense...weng...eventhough we've got the chance to meet last friday...but still...it's different from before...last time...i love spending time with that person...talking...everything...even nonsense..doesn't matter...that person just listen to everything i've said...we laughed together...eat together...that was last time...i miss all the precious time we've spent together... serious...that was last time...huh...i want everything to be back to normal...its not that i want u to treat me special...but just as a best friend laa...right arief?do u agree with me?do agree with this...coz what we've been through last time was really really great...i had a great time with this person...serious!everything was sweet...arghhhhh...tekanan plak beta...huhehehehhe...stop! everytime i thought about it...i'll stop myself...kang over lak kang...

EXTREMELY HORRIBLE

2005-04-24T18:04:00.000-07:00

what do u think if that "maybe later" i posted...can't be implemented?means that...i still like him..can't run away...can't throw all the feelings...ermmm...but i'm still trying...coz what for...i like the person who doesn't like me at all...huh!but it's ok laa kan...at least we are still friends....it's just that...i can't throw away all my feelings...to whom it may concern...i'm so sorry...
i still like u...arghhhhhhhh!!!!

EVERYTHING I DO

2005-04-23T22:04:00.000-07:00

ermmm...last wednesday...got the chance to see raph..yeahhh...makin cerah lak kau raph...tak terkata gembiranyer aku...best2...thanx for coming raph...jumpa tak lamer lak...coz kau nak balik dah kan... nemain...ader umur...kiter jumpa lagi...selagi aku idup...kiter tetap berkawan...yeahhhh...

wooooo...got the chance to release tension...going back home was the bestest thing...all the probs in utp gone skejap...right now back to utp already...but then...just wanna share some news i got from home...back on thursday...with a friend of mine...till sungai buloh then my parents took me home...we went to the tiles shop...to buy some tiles for our house...went to putra heights too...then...went back home in subang jaya...huh...what a relief...lega dah balik umah...memang 24 hrs i spent my time with my mum...sit beside her.. told her stories...laugh together...

but there was a kind of sad story plus tersentuh gak aaa...serius sedih...terharu...my mum had to teach her friend's children...just to get extra money..that's my ibu...everything she did made me realize that she's the best mum!!!serius sedih giler...i don't know how to act when she told me that...suddenly i just realized that i was crying...that night...i couldn't sleep...thinking about what my mum had told me...ermmm...is not that we are out of money...but then..just to gain extra money...coz we will be moving next month... so my parents kind of had to pay so many things...ermmm...

MAYBE LATER

2005-04-20T12:35:00.000-07:00

the moment when I talk...maybe for the last time....stop and let go everything...I’m sure this is the time...maybe u r not the same as before…maybe that feelings has gone...and maybe later...when we met again...I hope that u’ll not ask me...the feelings that were already died...
like last time...when everything was here...and when your heart wonders...u woke up from ur dreams...opened ur heart back...telling all the memories with me...maybe u r not the same as before maybe that feelings has gone...and maybe later...when we will meet again...I hope that u’ll not ask me back....the feelings that were already died...like last time...when everything was here....don’t ask me again...keep it to yourself...all the regression u’ve searched for...all the feelings u gave...

erm...all the feelings will be gone sooner or later...actually...these words really meant to a person...whom i used to adore...i used to like...i used to care...i used to talk to...i used to miss...i used to "friend finder"...everything laaa...but i think all those feelings will be gone...flt away... soon...n hope that the person will be happy as u wish,my friend...don't worry...i'll try to throw away all the feelings towards u...i think i don't have to reveal the person's name...just toi whom it may concerned...ok...v-_-v

FINAL DESTINATION

2005-04-18T15:45:00.000-07:00

uikksss...lamer gak aaa aku tak type2 dalam blog aku ih...internet slow maa...rindu lakz aku...nak tulis dlm ih...ish2...dah luper plak aper yang terjadik..ari2 aku takleh bukak blog ih...n aku bz gak...pre edx this wednesday...dissertation tak complete lai...isk2...what else...ermmm... every subject needs presentation to be done...reports to be submitted...assignment to be completed...ish2...susah gak jadi final yr ih...tp muka tetap menten beb...cam takde keje jer... padahal...only Allah knows...

ermmm...last saturday...had v4 day...not bad...last time i used to be jealous with the v4 students...coz they had this v4 day...but when i got the chance to join the night...it was nothing to be jealous of...takde per pun...nothing's great...bese jer...mkn2...that's all...just the performance laa yang best...n tak sangka laa...faliq's voice was superb!he sang mungkin nanti from peterpan and it was great!coz i like that song laaa kan...but his voice has no difference with ariel...the real singer...yeahhh...this faliq bukan aku kenal pun...sekadar tau jer laaa...batch may...he's a friend to a friend of mine...kwn fer ngan terk...aku sekadar tau jer laaa...dlu2 mamat ih cam kopap aaa...sort of busuk aaa...tak kenal...tatau aaa kan...skang dah ok lak aku tgk...comel gak aaa...

aiyaaa...that song of mimpi nanti is dedicated to someone i knew...someone i used to adore... someone i like the most last time...eerrkkk...aku cam termasuk dalam kelas org lak...aiyakkk... cam kena blah beb...ish....camner ih...

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